Finding Myself

Dont worry

Tommy walks in and sees the massacre happening. "Hey!" Tommy yells grabbing the nearest metal bat. He hits Vinny in the knees and I hear snapping. I lie here limp not being able to stop what was going down. Vinny screams in pain, "Please stop!" Tommy doesn't stop hitting his knees and legs. GiGi finally runs in. "What the fuck!" She yells then grabbing the bat from Tommy. Tommy picks me up and runs downstairs. "Somebody call the cops!" Tommy yells. He sits on the couch with me limp in his arms stroking my hair. He cries just looking at me and holding me tight. Within a short span of time the cops arrive and put me on a stretcher, I feel nothing. I manage to turn my head and see Shay at my side, she's crying the most. She grabs my hand, "Hey listen B I will be by your side and I swear to God I'll never leave again." It happens, something that hasn't happened in a minute, I have another episode of epilepsy. Everything goes numb and I start violently jerking around. I was just raped, by the person I've known since 4'th grade. My eyes slowly open, I'm still in the ambulance. Tommy is by my side holding my hand, still crying. I try to wipe his tears but my hand could only make it so far. I catch a glimpse of his amazing smile until my eyelids get too heavy for me to hold up. I open my eyes, I'm once again back in the hospital. I look over to see my mother crying by my bed side and my father rubbing her back. "Mama," I say with my partially Italian accent. She looks up still holding my hand. "You guys shouldn't worry," I say trying to make myself believe my own lie. To be truthful I'm not fine I've been battling depression for I guess forever and it's not something that's really okay. The doctor follows by two cops walk in, "Ms.FitzGerald, we need you to answer a few questions," the male cop says. I look at his badge his name is Bryan Cooper or detective Cooper whatever you want to call him. "Okay," I nervously let out, sitting up in my bed. My parents get up and exit the room to let us talk. "Do you know why Mr.Gambino would do this to you?" Detective Cooper questions looking up at me as if he felt I was going to lie. "Honestly, no we've known each other since fifth grade. He was an all around amazing guy. I'd never think he-" I try to keep going but I can't pull it off and start crying. "It's okay ms. We will make sure we put this man in jail." The other officer pipes up. She's short and I guess as people say thick she looks like she of a Latin decent. I couldn't stop crying, I feel so weak. How could I have not gotten out of that and defended myself. The officers question me for several more minutes before they leave. I look up as someone walks in, it's GiGi, Shay, and Tommy. Tommy runs over and hugs me he still has some blood on his shirt. I look at Shay's empty, cold, bland face. Usually she has much more color and life but this time there's nothing left but white. "I swear to god if I ever see that boy again I will k-" "I can't believe I didn't even try to check on you. What the hell is wrong with me? It's all my fault." I look at GiGi as she says this. I try to talk but I could tell I'm still in shock, so I let it go. Everyone leaves after thirty minutes except Shay. "You do know I love you right?" She asks holding onto my hand. "Yeah and I love you too," I reply. She kisses me on the cheek then proceeds to leave.