Growing Up with Dallas || C.D.

Thirty- four

I walked into my bedroom putting a pony tail up as I heard a knock at my door.

I walked up to the door and opened it to see Alyssa.

"Hey" she said awkwardly.

"Hi?" I questioned. "What are you doing here?"

"I came to explain about earlier"

"It's fine" I laughed. "You don't have to be sorry"

She laughed. "What makes you think I'm saying sorry?"

"Well you just said-"

"Explain"

"Okay well explain" I crossed my hands.

"Why do you even try?"

"Try what?"

"Like none of this bothers you. You like Cameron and he hasn't even told you anything huh"

"What? What has he told you that he's never told me?" I asked knowing that Cameron had already told me.

"You can't give him what every man wants"

"What?"

"You can never give him what 'he wants'. I can. To him your just a little kid who needs a friend, who really has no friends in general"

I couldn't believe that Cameron would say these things. "You're lying"

"Why would I lie, when I came walking in the middle of a dinner?"

"Okay? Still doesn't explain this"

"It's freakin freezing out there and I walked ten minutes here because I would rather suffer so it could make you feel better"

"Why do you hate me?" I asked concerned. "Was it because I'm standing in the middle of you and Cameron?"

"No, I don't hate you" she walked to the couch sitting down. "Well, are you gonna sit or not?"

I walked over and sat.

"I don't hate you. Here I'm just going to tell you straight up. You're really stupid to even like the boy"

"But don't you like him?"

"He was my ex, he's just a sex toy to me because honey, that shit's big" she chuckled looking at me as I just looked disgusted.

"Anyways, you're just blind. I know how this works. You try and convince yourself to not fall in love but Cameron just makes you feel some type of way yeah yeah. he leaves you for sex"

"Really?" I asked making a confusing expression believing all of this.

"Yea, but your smart. That's why you can never give him what he wants. Date him, he'll wait as long as he can to get what he wants then leaves"

"That doesn't sound like Cameron"

"It is, trust me. I've known him for almost 5 years, seriously he needs to stop his childish stuff"

"Wait why are you telling me this? How do I know your trying to make that stuff get in my head?"

"First of all, why would I create something even more horrible? I'm telling you this because your young he's older, he can get into young girl's head. Sounds bad. It is. Ask the girl who had the same experience but literally 1 year older difference" she pointed at herself.

"Listen, I'm tired. Can we just talk about this another time?"

"You're in denial. Don't, you'll just go back to reality"