staring. yoongi did alot of it, really. well, he constantly stared at park jimin, that is. honestly, it was a stare that was borderline creepy just because of the way he studied him. min yoongi loved park jimin. with, truly, all of his being. he loved every inch of the radiant boy and wanted nothing more than to just look at him every second of the rest of his life because honestly, he would be completely content with not being able to see anything else if that meant he could still look at jimin.
"hey, yoongi." jimin suddenly said as he sauntered into their bedroom, a large white t-shirt hanging off of his slim body and nothing but his brightly colored boxed briefs underneath. yoongi hummed in response, eyes meeting jimins wandering ones for a mere second before jimin climbed onto of the bed to sit next to him. "you should go to sleep, baby. you seem tired." jimin said with his gentle voice and a truthful heart, reaching over to gently squeeze yoongis pale hand with his own, when he finally found it. yoongi nodded slowly, still trying to process everything that was happening after jimin broke him out of his deep train of thought.
"what're you thinking about?" jimin says as he rests his heavy head on his hand, leaning into it curiously. yoongi just dragged his tired eyes over to his boyfriend, "us. well, you, mostly." he muttered out. jimin smiled faintly, picking up the covers and pulling them over their heads, forcing yoongi to lay down with him. "good things, i hope." jimin chuckled as he imagined yoongis face forming a smile. "of course. only good things, always good things." he said fondly, raking his fingers through jimins soft hair. he admired the way jimins hair still looked pretty even with the color half faded.
"good." jimin whispers as he looks straight in the direction of yoongis voice, his hand slowly coming up to touch his face. jimin did this often, so yoongi was used to it. because thats another thing about yoongis beloved park jimin; hes blind. completely and utterly sightless. yoongi was okay with it though, of course, he loved jimin just the same. yoongi watched as jimins eyebrows furrowed as his finger tips grazed over the skin of yoongis face. "i just want to look at you, i mean really see you." jimin said frustratedly, his hand moving from yoongis face to his own, clenching his eyes shut in an angry manner.
"baby," yoongi says gently just like he always does when jimin gets like this, "its okay. you dont need to see me, because i can see you. and thats already the greatest thing in my life." jimin smiled at his words, but still felt the loss in his heart. he has an idea of what yoongi looks like, and its beautiful, but he will never truly know. and that pains him. he wants to see just how beautiful his boyfriend is because he knows that he is, for sure. jimin then changes the subject, asking the same question he always does at this time; "yoongi, what does the sky look like right now?"
yoongi cranes his neck to get a better look at their window, studying the sky for a moment before looking back at jimin. "tonight is almost completely black, except there are many different shades of purple lining the sky line. its- its so pretty, jiminie. i wish you could-" but yoongi stops himself there. he shouldnt say things like that to jimin, its not like its his fault. jimin senses the way yoongi is feeling and speaks up, "its okay, baby. i've seen sunsets and purple skies before. all i want, more than anything, is to just see you, once."
yoongis eyes brim with tears, but he doesnt let them fall, even if he knows jimin cant see them. "hey, hey, dont cry.." jimin says gently, reaching out to caress his cheek. "how- how'd you know?" yoongi mumbles, heat rising to his cheeks as he realizes the way he kind of sounds like a child. "of course i know, silly!" jimin laughs, "i may be blind but im not dumb! your my boyfriend, i can always tell when somethings wrong." jimin explains, soft hand still resting on yoongis face. yoongi just sighs contently, shutting his eyes.
"i love you." yoongi mumbles to jimin as he pulls him closer, deciding to finally head to bed. jimin giggles lightly, the sound making yoongis stomach flip. "i love you more." he then whispers back, just like he always does.
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a/n look whos backkkkk... meeee!!! i missed you all so so sooo much, and im glad i could finally get this out! i hope it was alright!
lots of love, namjoon1994 ! (tysm for 40k reads, i legit cried about it last night shajsd im such a mess.. im having alot of crush problems rn im sorry for the late update..)
