Jason and I actually do homework, he helps me with my actual geometry, and we finish around 5:00. Mom went upstairs to take a nap and get ready. I'm lost in my thoughts when I hear Jason say my name.
"I thought you said you were going to stop?" He says, he sounds upset. I know it hurts him, but I don't know how else to deal with stuff.
"I'm trying, okay?!" I don't mean to snap at him, but I don't know how to respond.
"I'm sorry..." I say looking down.
Jason grabs my chin in his left hand, and pulls my lips to his. He kisses me softly and looks at me, smiling. I smile back at him. For one, I love his smile, and for two, he's a great kisser. I know I can't get caught up in this, with him. For now though, I'm just going with the flow.
That's kind of how I live. My friend Cade asked me a question once. I can't remember what it was, but I do remember how I responded. All I said back was, "I live in the moment...". He smiled, and asked what I meant. I told him whatever happens, happens. He gave me a hug and told me he'd see me later, he had basketball practice.
Jason and I go sit on the couch and watch T.V. We like old movies, my favorite is "Dirty Dancing". It's on and we watch it. 6:00 rolls around and Cammi walks in the door. Liam doesn't usually get home until really late, usually around 11-12 at night, so I didn't even worry when I heard the door open. My pug Annie does though. She's hilarious, she was an orphan and we decided to take her in. We got asked to foster her by my 4-H dog leader. Mom and I fell in love with her, we asked to keep her, and Jan ( my 4-H leader ) said we had first dibs.
Annie barked and snorted when she heard the door, but then she realized it was Cammi and just hopped off my lap and ran to greet her. It didn't surprise me that my sister Dani wasn't home, neither of us really are. She's seventeen and is always doing something with her boyfriend Will. He's nice, I really like him. They've been dating for four years. They were on and off for two of those years, but he's like family. He's always around when she's home. He stays over a lot, I try and cover for them if Liam gets suspicious.
I also have an eight year old sister. Her name is Ann, and she's staying with our grandparents tonight. She rides he bus there sometimes. It's Thursday but mom said she could stay until Saturday. She's always let us stay with grandma, basically whenever. She leaves the state for business trips sometimes. She's usually gone for about a week, but whenever she is on one of her trips, Ann stays with grandma, and Dani stays with Liam. His parents love her and don't care if she stays, most of the time they're not even home. Usually, I stay with Daisy half the time, and Emmy the other half. Mom usually takes these trips once a month, and about every other trip I'll stay with Christina one half, and Chloe the other. If moms trips run really long, then I stay with my aunt Chelle. It's short for Michelle, her middle name. She doesn't like her first name, Billie, so she goes by her middle name.
I get up and go give Cammi a hug and kiss on the cheek. "Hey mom!" I say to Cammi. "What's up mom?" Jason says from the couch.
"Hi there!" She says laughing.
"You two are dorks!" She says under a smile.
"We've heard." Jason and I say in unison.
"Moooommm!" I have to yell it up the stairs, the shower is on and she left the door cracked. She told me to holler up when Cammi got here.
"I'll be done in a few!" She yells back.
"Hey sexy momma!" Cammi hollers back as she walks up the stairs to sit in the bathroom and talk to mom until she gets out of the shower.
Their voices fade out after a Cammi gets upstairs and shuts the bathroom door. I walk over to the couch and pick Annie up so she can snuggle into the pile of blankets beside Jason.
"I'm going to go get ready Jason."
"Can I help." He says with a smirk.
"Whatever!" I roll my eyes and walk up to my room. My bed is still a mess from this morning. I never make my bed, I don't see a point to it. You're just going to mess it up the next night anyway. I pull my hoodie off and open my closet. I walk in and go over to my shoes. My closet is huge, it has a comfy padded seat in the middle. I have tons to choose from. Mainly Vans and Chucks. I'm like the only person who still calls Converse "Chucks". I grab my grey Vans with the teal shoe laces. I go over to my dresser and grab my no show socks and slide them on. I slip on my Vans and tuck the laces inside, I never tie Vans, I think it looks weird.
Finally, I walk over to the shirts. I have a lot of tank tops, it's hot outside, almost 98 degrees, so I figure I'll find a cute one to wear. I start skimming through all of my shirts and I stop on my favorite tank top. It's from Hollister and has the words "LIVE YOUR LIFE" on the front. I pull it off the hanger and set it down so I can take off the one I'm already wearing. I pick up my Hollister tank and slip it over my head. It's flowy so I tie it in a knot on the front left side. I go to my dresser and grab my deodorant . Once I put that on, I spray my summertime perfume on, also from Hollister.
I touch up my makeup and redo my eyeliner. Finally I'm ready. I start to walk over to my mirrored doors to get a look at myself, but as I was walking over there, I didn't notice the dirty clothes from yesterday on my closet floor. I tripped over the clothes and as I was falling I yelled " FUCKING WHORES!" And hit the floor. I could hear Jason laughing all the way upstairs. Mom and Cammi were running in here to see what happened. When they noticed what happened, they started dying laughing. Mom was wearing her damn, ugly ass robe. Cammi had to sit on the chair in my closet because she was laughing so hard!
I finally started laughing even though my boobs hurt from falling flat on my chest. I started to get up and noticed Jason's hand was held out to help me up. I took his hand and when I stood up I let go. They were all still laughing while I straightened up my outfit.
"Fucking whores..." I said under my breath.
"We're what?" Mom said cracking up again.
"Not you guys! You know I always say that! God you're all pains..." I started to giggle again. "Can we leave now?"
"Wow you're impatient!" Cammi said laughing.
" I know I'm impatient..."
