One-off short stories

Memoirs of the Future- Part 4- Spirit

Journal Entry, November 13, 20XX
A lot of things have happened since I first joined the Resistance. Learning about the time machine being a large one. Before today, Kya had been teaching me how to use it. She said the man who built it would like me to be able to use it. She also said I was the one person she believed could change fate. I can still remember it clearly, what she told me,"Don't worry Kay. I know you can do what nobody else could. You have spirit, remember?" And yet, even with all that, even with her death, I still can't bring myself to do it. To use the time machine. I'm certain I'll continue making excuses to myself. The people here need me more, and I can use the time machine whenever I want. But I know I'm just scared. Scared of what the past holds, scared of what could happen if I try to use it. Every time I see it, part of me just wants to have no regrets and just go. And yet here I am, still in the present. Anyways, I still have an important job to do today, so I can't write anymore.

Journal Entry, November 18, 20XX
I'm not sure I'll ever be able to bring myself to use the time machine. I know it's right there for me, but still. I feel like I haven't learned enough, and that something would go horribly wrong. I'm sorry Kya, I'm not even sure I have the spirit I thought I did. I mean, without you, I can't see the path I have to take. I'm so sorry.

Journal Entry, November 27, 20XX
So today I've heard, a few of our resistance members were captured. I'm going to go after them. If I can't use the time machine, I'll do everything else I can to be the best person I can be. I'm going to at least be a hero in this time. Maybe then I can at least live with myself.

Journal Entry, December 1, 20XX
I can't believe this is happening to me again! I should of known it would be a trap. Still, even so, I can't believe this is happening to me again. To be honest, I'm surprised they're even letting me write this. I got myself captured again. Even though before I was a little girl, it still gives me horrible nightmares. They probably want me to give away the location of our current base. I'm not sure if I can take it. There's nobody to save me this time. Kya's gone, and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not sure if I'm strong enough to not give away the location. I'm not sure if I'm strong at all anymore. Apparently this is the last note they'll let me write. I guess that means they expect this to be the end of me.

Journal Entry, December 24, 20XX
I can't believe I failed! I can't believe they got the information from me. But what happened after is what I can't believe the most.
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I've given away the information. They have no more use for me. This is when I die right? I'm a dangerous resistance member, so this is when I die. If only I hadn't been so scared. If only I had the drive to keep going. I could be saving this world. But now I'm stuck here, waiting to die. And then she heard voices,"Why in the world would we let her out?" One of the men, I knew he was guarding on me, asked.
"Because I said so, that's why. You won't disobey a superior, would you?" It was a woman's voice, one I hadn't heard before.
"No ma'am! You can let her out if you want to." The man was obviously frightened.
"Thank you." She said, before heading down closer to me,"Hello Kay."
"Why are you doing this to me? Wouldn't it be better for you to just let me die!" I asked.
She laughed a bit,"Better? Certainly. But I want to see you, just like everyone else related to her, suffer. And a death right now wouldn't be what you deserve at all!"
"Who in the world are you?" I ask.
"Just be happy someone let you out of here. This is what you need isn't it. To get out of here and change things?" She says, smiling evilly.
"How much do you know about me? How do you know all this?" I ask, confused and annoyed at the woman.
"I know anything I can that could make her suffer more for what she did." The woman replies, letting me free,"Now run, before I change my mind and just show her your dead body!"
I ran out as soon as I could, only now realizing the extent of what she knew. She could use the time machine. I'd given away the location, I needed to get back to the base now! If I'm lucky there isn't a strike team there yet I can get to it safely.
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Now I'm quickly heading back to the base. I don't know what I'll find there.

Journal Entry, December 25, 20XX
In the past, today was the day known as 'Christmas'. It was a day of giving and cheer for everyone. That's not what it feels like to me. No, not when everyone I cared about was killed. What have I done!? And yet, it was still right there, unharmed. As if nobody had even touched it during the attack. It seemed crazy to me, until I found the note on it,"You should be thankful! Now you at least get to fail at saving the world! Of course you know, fate never changes, and no matter what happens, your home has been destroyed, and in it all your friends have been killed. That is something you can't change. Anyways, Merry Christmas!"
I could tell that was from the same woman who let me free. And yet I can't help but take it. It's a gift I must accept. As I get in this machine now, I have no idea what will happen. To be honest, I'm still scared. But I know the mistakes I've made now. And even though there's a part of me that thinks this won't change anything, I know it's not true. Because I do remember Kyasurin's words. I have spirit, and I will change fate!
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The time machine whirred to life, and pulled me into the past. I have no idea what will happen to me, but I do know. I will never give up. I will never stop until I make a better future than the one I live in!

The End.
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And thus ends the tetralogy of Kay's past. I hope you enjoyed if you read the whole thing, and I hope it wasn't terrible. Anyways, if you have any questions, or criticism, put it in the comments.