Adopted But Not Saved

happy/sad birthday

(Ava's POV*) 

I refuse to fall back to sleep. Carisi thinks i am asleep but i am not. Right when I know he is asleep, the pain in my stomach comes back. I push it away. 

For the past couple of days, ive known my birthday was coming up. Its today. Crap! I don't want them to know this is my birthday. I hate it when people tell me happy birthday because it is just another year i haven't seen my parents.

I open my eyes and stare at the ceiling. How could some much go wrong in one persons life. And tomorrow starts a new year where more things can go wrong. 

"I know your up." Carisi says. I look over at him and he is staring right back. I look up at the ceiling again and shake it off. "I know what your thinking."

"No you dont." i replied because i know he doesnt.

"Yea I do."

"Then what am I thinking about?"

"How today is your birthday, and you dont want to celebrate." I quickly look at him. Shit. He knew what I was thinking about.

"How did you know that?" I ask sternly.

"Ava, Amanda adopted you and we all had to sign parental unit papers, so we all know its your birthday. We were just gonna wait for you to tell us, we wanted to see how long you would lie to us." Carisi said with a stern face.

"Im sorry. I just really dont like birthdays. It just.... You know...." I try to explain but there is a lump in my throat.

"I know Ava... I know.... Its okay, you dont have to explain." He says and he places a hand on mine. I dont flinch.... I dont even move.... I dont care, and it feels great. "But, you have us now, and i know that might not be as great as having your biological parents, but we could make it as great. We love you." I look over at him again. 

"I love you guys too." I whisper.

"Good. So we are gonna have to talk." 

"About?"

"The baby." 

My heart sinks again. "What?"

"It survived."

I feel tears building up again, but i dont cry. i just nod. 

"you okay?" He asks.

"Yup. I am fine." I say.

"Ok. Well im here, and we are gonna go get something to eat later. They are dismissing you  early." 

"Okay." I whisper still in shock.

After about 2 hours, i get dressed and we leave. The rest of the team is already at the precinct. When we arrived at the precinct, Carisi helped me up the stair and into the building. When we walked onto the floor where the whole squad usually is, nobody is there. All the lights are off and doors are closed.

"Where is everybody?" I ask.

"Umm, i dont know-" He was smiling but cut off by everyone cheering.

"Surpise!" Everybody yelled. 

I jump back a little startled... but let everything settle in. 

My dull frown slowly turns into a sharp smile. I look up to Carisi and he is staring down at me with the biggest smile on his face. 

"You knew about this?" I ask, and somehow my smile gets a little bigger.

He just nods and looks up again. I look around the room and notice a ton of cops and detectives i have never met in my life, and a few i know all wearing different colored party hats. Amanda is the first to come running up with two party hats in her hand. She bends over and carefully pulls the strap below my chin and places the cone on my head. It says "Birthday girl!" on it.

She then stands up and does the same to Carisi, except pulling the band all the way down and letting go of it so it hits his chin and leaves a red line. Then she whispers something in his ear. I don't pay a lot attention to it though.

Then Nick comes running over and grabs my hand and lightly pulls me to his desk. 

"Sit down." He tells me. I sit down and he nods to Carisi, who is standing behind me, and he places his hands on my face to block me from seeing anything. I don't like the fact that i can't see, but i go along with it. "Hold out your hands." He tells me. I smile and cautiously do.

He places a heavy box in my hand. "Okay... open up." He says. When i open my eyes, i look at the box with cute pink wrapping paper and a light blue curly bow on the top. "Open it up." I smile.

I slowly take the bow off and put it on the desk. Before i can even take my hand away from it it, Carisi grabs it and sticks it to my hat. I laugh at him. I then unwrap the sides and take the wrapping paper off it. Underneath it is a brand new gold, Iphone 6, and a black case on it. I smile. 

"Are you serious?" I ask

"Yup. Its yours now. I put all of our numbers in it." Nick says.

"Thank you so much." I say so thankful and shocked. I stand up and give him a hug. 

"Okay.. that not it. Sit back down. We all got you something." I sit down.

"Guys, you didnt have to do that." I say.

"We didnt have to. But we wanted to." 

Munch came up next and gives me a small bag. I took out the paper inside and at the bottom were 2 concert tickets. I pick them up in my hands and read the title. Munch bought me ticket to go see One Direction. I looked up smiling. 

"How did you know i love them?" I ask.

"Because that day i picked you up from school a while ago, you blasted there song." He says laughing. I smile. I get up and give him a hug.

"thank you."

"You are very welcome." He replies. "That was from me and Fin." I smile at Fin and walk t him and give him a hug too. I am careful though because i get that pain in stomach is back. I push it away once again and go sit back down.

"Here you go." Carisi hands me a large box. Its heavy. I open the box and look inside. There are sneakers. I lift one up. They are white leather Adidas sneakers. My mouth drops open in awe. 

"I love them so much." I tell him. 

"Good. I remember you pointing them out at the first day we met you at the restaurant."

"You remember that?" I asked shocked.

"Yea i do. You loved those." Carisi smiles.

"I know. Thank you so much." I hug him and sit down again.

"Okay, last one." Amanda comes up to me and tells me to close my eyes again. I do, and then i feel something cold being wrapped around my neck. I open my eyes and look down. There is a beautiful gold necklace hanging on my chest.

Its a locket. I open it up and there is a pic of all of us. Munch, Fin, Nick, Carisi, Olivia, Amanda, Captain, Me and even Raphael Barba. We took this pic before i was kidnapped. On the back the words "we love you" are engraved. I smile.

"Thank you so much. I love you guys." I get up and hug them all. 

"Okay birthday girl, where do you wanna eat today?"  Olivia asks. 

"How about the place where we first went after you adopted me.

"Uncle tonys?"

I nod.

"Lets go." Carisi yells.

And i realize these people are now my family.