•Letters•

11.

My one and only Luke,

My old best friend from school got in contact with me today, she sounded nice enough in all her messages. Noah and I went to visit her. She hasn't changed.

Jackie is still the same, her mum still does absolutely everything for her. She's never going to move out of home and she's never going to find a guy or have a family of her own. I tried talking her into going out and living on her own but that was a no go. She's going to be there until she dies.

She asked why I was wearing a jumper, I couldn't tell her. She would freak but there is one thing, I'm never going to see her again. We spent 3 hours there and by the grace of God it was the worst 3 hours of my day. I was having a good day until I saw her.

I have been doing well lately, I'm really proud of myself. I just wish you were here to be proud of me to. Noah cleaned his room today without me asking him, I said I was proud of him and his response was.

'I'm proud of you to mummy, you've been so strong.'

That made me smile, the rest of the day we ate so much junk food and watched so many movies. Buster got all of the crumbs and I was genuinely happy, except for the fact that he felt sick after it. I'm sitting here on the couch rubbing his stomach. He looks to peaceful to move him to bed so I put a blanket over him and I think we're just sleeping on the couch tonight.

It wouldn't be the first time I've done it.

So yesterday all the boys were over and so was Skye, they were all having so much fun. Running around the apartment, singing and they have been teaching him guitar. Earlier in the day I had found another one of your books and while they were there I needed a break.

I walked up to the roof and sat up there where we always did, I looked out over the city and I could see the beach. I sat on the ground leaning on the wall and I opened up the book and a picture fell out.

It was of us when we first started dating, we looked so happy.

What happened to our happiness?

I went to put it in the back of the book and I found another picture of a little girl. I thought it was one of your cousins and I didn't think anything of it.

I put it back where I found it and I started reading the book, I read the songs you wrote with Calum all the half finishes one. Until I got to the back and I found out who the girl was.

I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS RIGHT NOW LUCAS!!

Yours truly,
Jas

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Ohh so who's the girl?
It needed a twist and I have a few more in mind

Love you xx

~ Jodie x