•Letters•

27.

Hemmo,

Let me believe I'm dreaming, let the universe call the bluff. Pinch me, pinch me hard and tell me everything bad that has happened is a dream.

Life goes downhill and then it comes back up again, it's a slow and long process but it happens eventually. I went downhill last week and just pushed through.

You would be proud of me babe, I didn't do anything to harm myself. I'm proud of myself, I'm starting to get my head back on the right space.

'Don't let life get you down.'

I have this written across the top of the mirror in the bathroom, Calum said it to me a few days ago and it's really stuck and it has a lot of meaning to me.

Reading it every morning is starting to help me get my mind back and giving me the will power I need in the mornings. It helps me with living my life.

Working at the studio is great, I'm happy and the clients they've bought in are really nice and so kind. I feel like they see me as a real person, not a teenage mum but a real person.

I had a really good talk with a young group the other day, 2 guys and 2 girls. They're only teenagers and living their dreams and I was happy to be helping them.

I've been working hard on my thinking, I'm back on my anti depressants and they are helping me a lot more now. I'm still trying to work on my eating, it's hard.

I still skip meals but the kids make me sit with them at dinner time and literally sit on me until I finish everything on my plate.

I'm starting to think Skye has been talking to them and Michael has been telling them to sit on me, I don't mind that they're doing it but sometimes it gets to much.

I've had a good month or so and I hope you have to, you have been on my mind but work and the kids are my first priorities.

I love you to the moon and back

Jasmine xoxo

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Well, I have finished writing all the chapters and I'm starting the next book which is going to be different to this.

Much love xo

~ Jodie x