•Letters•

14.

Lovely lovely Luke,

The last time i wrote to you was over 2 months ago, before you ask yes you have been in my mind. I have been thinking about you, I've just had no words. Life is pretty average and nothing exciting has happened.

Well, something happened. While we were at your Aunties place I wanted to run. Just run away and never look back but I knew I had to stay. The kids love camping, I loved it. It gave me a week away from technology, I kept in contact with the boys just so they knew I didn't rum away or die or anything like that.

Charlotte was playing with my hair today and so was Noah, it was a mess when they finished but while they were doing that I had your old guitar. I have been learning from Michael and it's been relaxing me.

I started playing a few random tunes and I just giggled when the kids starting singing random words and random songs they've heard from the wiggles.

I kept playing the cords I did know and suprsingly I knew a fair bit, the best part was when they started to dance around the room. It was so cute and I couldn't help but smile.

I'm starting to feel like you never cared about me or Noah and your with some pretty blonde girl who's smart and can give you more than what I can.

I've been clean for 3 months now and I'm falling back into a bad place but I'm pushing through it for the kids and only the kids. Being alone scares me so much, I'm scared of dying alone in this apartment.

I don't have anything else to say to you, maybe when I've gotten back into my good head space I will write again.

I'm missing you like crazy today

I love you xx

Jasmine xo

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Hey

This is short and I'm sorry and I feel like it's repeating itself but in the next chapter I have a twist planned.

Yay!!

Love ya xo

~ Jodie x