•Letters•

12.

Luke,

It's been a couple of weeks since I read your book, well diary/song book. I'm still majorly fucking pissed off with you, I have no fucking words for it.

What am I supposed to say?

We were in love, living in an apartment together. We have a son and you don't think to tell me you have a 6 year old daughter! I knew you were a fuck boy and a player but I didn't expect to find out you have another kid to someone else who is a druggie.

I'm going to scream Luke and wherever you are you would be able to hear me. When I was working the other day some really nice old guy came up to me, we started having a good talk. He was so sweet and so kind words can't explain it.

We were chatting away about animals and pets and everything and them he mentioned your name. I didn't think anything of it I assumed he knew a person named Luke but no. I was wrong.

When he mentioned Hemmings it must have been the look on my face.

'Luke is my grandson, he's talked about you a lot.'

I didn't know what to say, I had to take a few steps back and lean on the counter before I collapsed and then his wife came in with the little girl. The little girl who is your daughter. She was shy and innocent.

I gave her a warm smile to be nice and then your grandma spoke up.

'When Luke visited his daughter, he was always in his element and he was a great father. The last time he came to see her was when she was almost 3. We've had her in our custody because her mum well her mum died.'

There was no other way Luke, I had to take her in. Your grandparents are retired and want to travel but they can't with a 6 year old. She's a nice girl, very very shy but I guess you probably already know that.

Noah thinks he's just it, he loves her and loves having a big sister. She called me mum for the first time the other day, I didn't know how to react. I made pizza for them the other night and I went to have a shower when I came put they had set up a fort in the he lounge room.

They looked so cute together all cuddled up in the pillows giggling at the movie, so now I'm more greatful than ever for all the boys helping me out.

But the one thing I would appreciate and be more greatful for is you. I still hate you for not telling me. We're in a relationship, well we were the last time I checked.

Come home Luke, you have 2 beautiful kids here. I have to go through all of the adoption stuff so Charlotte is legally mine and I would love it if you were by my side.

I'm starting to think I need a bigger apartment we have the 3 rooms but I don't know. With everyone coming here all the time it gets really crowed and I feel really clostrophobic.

Jas x

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So, Luke's bit of a fuck boy. Nah when I wrote the next book he's going to be a better person and yeah I have a few ideas

Love you x

~ Jodie x