•Letters•

15.

To my beautiful Jasmine,

I feel terrible about everything, I've hidden stuff well a lot actually. I don't know how to bring it up and I hate making you upset. I don't know where to start, I don't know what I should say and what I shouldn't say.

I'm not the kind of guy you think I am, I want to ring you and tell you everything but I have no phone privlages. Nothing has gone right for me, I don't think anything will ever be okay again.

If you ever found out this side of you would be be ashamed, Noah would be ashamed. I'm missing out on him growing up but it's my own fault.

It's my own fault for being sick a dick and doing this. I sit here thinking about you, every single second of the day your on my mind. I can't get you out and Noah.

I ask myself everyday what does he look like? Does he know who I am? Is he going to recognize me if I ever get to see him again?

I put one foot in front of the other and I keep pushing through everyday and I hope you doing the same thing baby girl. Put one foot in front of the other and keep going that's all I want from you.

I can't tell you where I am and I know you will never get the chance to read this or any of the other letters I may write. I haven't been in contact with anyone, I can't be in contact with anyone. I hope your doing well I wouldn't still be going of it wasn't for you being my inspiration.

I hope my friends are taking care of you, I know how much they love you. I know your really so close with Skye and she's always been so nice to you and even me.

Don't go doing anything you will regret, please. I wish I could come see you but I can't. Your everything to me Jasmine.

Just remember to keep your head high, fuck the haters out of your life. Your worth so much more than them and your beautiful. Don't ever let anyone tell you any different.

Stay strong for me baby girl and if not for me stay strong for Noah. He needs you, he needs one good parent in his life.

I love you with all of my heart and I just wish I could hold you in my arms.

I love you x

Luke xoxo

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Hehe what's that like for a twist, I felt like something was needed to make it more exciting

Love you xx

~ Jodie x