FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. WHY THE HELL DID HE DO IT? WHY THE HELL DID HE GO THROUGH WITH IT? WHAT IN THE RIGHT MIND MADE HIM DO THAT AND PUSHED HIM SO DAM FAR? I just honestly can't do anything right now. All I can see in my mind is Kian, alone in an isolated dump giving it all up. Why did he do it? Was it because of me? Was it because of my stupid decisions or the fight we had the previous day? Did he finally slip away because of me? Did he do it because of how much I hurt him? Did he really hurt himself because of me? What if it is my fault? Is it because of me? All of this is constantly running through my mind as I get the knife and I slice and as I see the world slip from beneath me and a white light, I finally understand why. Kian is gone and so am I. He's gone because of my stupid mistakes and I knew it was time. I knew I needed him more than anything and I honestly couldn't anymore. I am finally free and Kian is finally free and I suppose that's all the really matters.
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Fanfiction"I feel as if I'm running back to where I started. You ask what's wrong with me and I say nothing. Is everything okay? Is something wrong with me? Pushing and pulling feelings. Eternal my heart is yours. I feel as if I'm running. I feel as if I'm ru...
