All I can think is, "Is Kian really okay right now?" because all I can see is the light in his eyes becoming dimmer and dimmer until they are pools of black darkness. All I honestly want to do is hold him and tell him that everything is going to be alright but honestly, I don't think it will be. Kian is suffering from depression and I know that I don't have the right words to comfort him and that honestly breaks me a part. All I want is my Kian back. The one who loves it when I make a fool of myself. The one who loves to push me into a pool that is freezing cold. But also the one who can make me smile when I am struggling. Who can with one kiss make things so much brighter and better. And the one that loves me with his whole heart no matter how many mistakes I make and no matter how many times I do the most stupidest things. But honestly, it hasn't been like that all week. He's slowly becoming more distance with me and I know that something's up and honestly, I really want to talk to him about it but I know it'll make no difference. He's not my Kian anymore and honestly as much as it hurts, I need to let him go because I can't love a shell of him and not the real person. I need to walk away and I need to let him no matter how I love him because when I do, it'll set us both free no matter how hard this is. I love him and I am letting him go. We're both free and I know that there is no going back.
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Faking Reality- Jian
Fanfiction"I feel as if I'm running back to where I started. You ask what's wrong with me and I say nothing. Is everything okay? Is something wrong with me? Pushing and pulling feelings. Eternal my heart is yours. I feel as if I'm running. I feel as if I'm ru...
