The first thing I remember seeing on J.C's face is confusion and uncertainty. Maybe for him, it was the realization of actually finally seeing me for the first time since I left him that note or maybe it was the shock of seeing me and seeing how different our lives turned out after we parted ways. And I suppose for a moment, it does feel confusing and almost, unfamiliar because it had been so long. I still remember everything I put J.C through even as I stare at my beautiful and incredible curly haired boy. How I left a note instead of saying goodbye properly to him. How I gave up so easily and how I broke his heart and caused him to go as far as me. I suppose for me seeing J.C remaindered me of all the regrets I held and remaindered me that although I was searching for answers from him in this hell, I already knew the real answer to all my questions. And I knew deep down inside that it was all my fault that we both ended up in this position and ended up in this hell and in this unforgiving place. And I know as I draw closer to J.C and draw him into a kiss, I know that I am coming to that realization and I am coming to that conclusion. And I know no matter how much I try with J.C, it will always be my fault and it will always be a stupid mistake that I regret. And I know that as the kiss ends, the confusion and uncertainty on J.C's face is replaced with a small and familiar smile and the tears begin to fall down my face, I know that this will always be my fault and I am never going to be able to fix it no matter how hard I try.
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Fanfiction"I feel as if I'm running back to where I started. You ask what's wrong with me and I say nothing. Is everything okay? Is something wrong with me? Pushing and pulling feelings. Eternal my heart is yours. I feel as if I'm running. I feel as if I'm ru...
