Jung Hana POV
I woke up from my deep sleep. Ouch! Damn my head! It hurts! I'm full of regret because of the fact that I drunked myself lastnight. I sighed and opened my eyes widely.
What?! Where am I?!
I looked at the ceiling, it's in soft pink colour. I looked around me, damn it's my apartment. Then something beside me was holding tight my hands.
" AARGH! " I shouted and pulled my hands. " Who are you?! "
He lazily woke up from his sleep and ruffled his messy hair.
" K-kim Hanbin? " I widened my eyes.
Luckily I'm still wearing my clothes. " What are you doing here?! "
" Aish. Don't be so noisy. I wanna sleep " He said while shutting his eyes.
" Ya! " I shook his arms.
" Why? " He asked.
This guy. I need to talk to you! Idiot. Damn it.
" If you don't wake up 5 minutes from now, I'll go " I said and he immediately wake up, rubbing his eyes.
" Oh? Hana-ya, you're awake. Let's get some breakfast. Okay? " He asked as if he didn't do anything wrong.
" Huh?! " I widened my eyes and smacked his arms.
" Ouch! Why?! " He asked and caressed his arms.
" What are you doing here huh?! "
" Ya! Stop hitting me! I'm just helping you. Be thankful that you're safe with me "
" Safe? You think I'm safe with you? It's more to be unsafe! "
" Why would you be unsafe? I can protect you "
I was about to thank him for that.
" Protect me? Focus on yourself. " I said and stand up.
" Why? " He suddenly asked a hard one word question.
I grabbed my bag that was placed on the table. Suddenly he pulled my arms.
" Where are you going? " He asked.
" Anywhere that I can escape from you " I replied.
" Just because of our picture? " He asked.
" Let me go " I stared into his eyes.
" I'm not going to let you go. Are you really that scared? Scared that people will bash you out? You don't have to. You're neglecting me because you know that I love you. Aren't you? Be honest Jung Hana. You can never neglect me. Because I always love you. There's no other person. " He hold my shoulders.
I'm sorry Hanbin. That's the only excuse I have. I don't want to neglect you. But I don't want to meet Jinwoo. I have to neglect you. You are close with them. I don't know but I don't think I love you. I don't love anyone except for my family and my bestfriend, Soyoon. Even if our picture leaked more, I'm not afraid. Do take our pictures and upload it on the SNS. I don't really care.
" I'm sorry Hanbin. " I said and slowly pushed his hands that were holding my shoulder.
" Do you really have to go? Do you really have to leave me? Atleast you should say your goodbye nicely to me before you leave for New York. " He said.
I turned around to look at him, " I would like to. But it's better if we don't " and slowly walked away.
Kim Hanbin POV
" I would like to. But it's better if we don't "
Just how those words hurts my feeling so much.
How am I able to hold my anger now?
My phone suddenly rang which makes me irrirated.
- Phone conversation -
Hanbin : What?!
Manager : Hey, what's wrong? It's me.
Hanbin : *sighed* Sorry hyung. Why?
Manager : Where are you? You guys will have fanmeeting later.
Hanbin : Ah, right.. I'll be home as soon as possible
Manager : Okay then. See you later.
Hanbin : Yeah
I hang up and throw my phone on the bed. Sighing deeply that Hana leave. I grabbed my hoodie and my snapback.
Arrived at iKON's dorm, I went to the kitchen and drank some water.
Mind control Hanbin. Mind control.
Though I said that to myself but I can't help to hold my anger. I threw the bottle in my hand that made the water in it splattered everywhere.
Jinhwan hyung suddenly ran to the kitchen, " Hanbin-ah! What's wrong with you?! "
I shook my head, " Sorry hyung. "
After that I went into my room and lie on my bed. I don't know what to say. I hate this feeling.
" Hanbin-ah. Control your madness. We're going to meet the fans later. So, you have too, " Jinhwan hyung adviced.
Although I wanted to do so, but my heart won't do that.
Suddenly the door was knocked and opened a bit. Our manager's head popped out, " Guys. The fanmeeting are cancelled due to the bad weather. "
It was a relief. The fact that the fan meeting was cancelled. I'm sure I won't be able to hide my mood swings. It would be obvious even if I faked a laugh or whatever.
" What is it all about? Hanbin-ah? " Jinhwan hyung asked.
" Nothing. " I mumbled and close my eyes.
" You know things will only get worse if you didn't share it, " He patted my back.
" Well. I just don't know how to make she realize.. " I finally told it.
" Hana? You know, I got a really bad feeling when I first met her. I thought she's a bad girl but no. When the moment she treat us, I realized that she are the nicest person. She is not easy as how some other girls would be. She's a good thinker. So maybe that's exactly why she is like that, "
That advice. I really don't know anything. I wanted to go to her house but I don't know how. Part of me wanting to let her be but the other part are telling me to wait for her. How am I going to do that?
" Hyung. If I did something crazy, please stop me. No matter what way. " I said and lied on my bed.
