Jung Hana POV
" Haena! Why did you do that?! " I shouted.
" You can never be happy in your life. Never. You are just making everyone burdens. You made someone's life in dangerous because of your existence in his life, "
" What do you mean? I never meant to make them in hard situation. Never ever. What do you want from me actually? "
" You should die. Leave this world. You don't have to go and move anywhere far. Just die. It will be easy for me. You stole my happiness. And you deserve to die, "
" Are you crazy? " I held my hands tightly.
" Maybe I am, " She said and pushed me.
I fell from a rooftop, I closed my eyes as tears flowed out.
" LORD SAVE ME! " I screamed my heart out
" I love you, Hana! " I heard someone shouts my name.
I opened my eyes and saw white space. My eye balls moves around. I can feel my eyes wet due to the tears.
The first person I saw as soon as I woke up. Kim Jinwoo. Could it be him? Could Jinwoo be the one who says-
" Hey? "
I was stopped in my own hallucination.
" Are you okay already? " As I looked closely. It's not Mino. Why am I thinking about him? It's freaking Kim Hanbin.
Why are you like this Hana? Its Hanbin not Mino. Think properly dear heart and brain.
" Yeah, I'm okay, " I said and get up.
" Mino told me you fainted and told me to go here as soon as I can, "
" Really? Where is he then? "
" He went home. What he's doing here? Why didn't you tell me you're discharged? "
There's comes him.
" He just trying to help me out. Nothing more. Okay? I didn't tell since you said you got concert in Singapore, "
" I don't care. You have and you must tell me. And please? Mino? Where's your sister? Can't you stay at your sister's place? "
I'm starting to pissed off by his talks.
" What's wrong with you? I don't want to make things hard for my sister. She took two weeks off and postponed her shooting just to look after me and I hate being cared. I don't like putting burdens on someone. I am not that person. And why? Mino? I said he's just trying to help me. Is that even wrong? "
" Okay, I understand about your sister but Mino, "
I sighed. Why is he being like this? I'm tired.
" He's a guy, " He continued his words.
" Yeah he is. And why is that? You afraid? "
" Ofcourse I'm afraid! I'm so scared that you'll put or keep feelings for him. Thats not impossible, you know? While I'm not here, you might be keeping personal feelings towards him. And we would end our relationship just like that if it happens. I'm trying my best not to make it happen, " He said.
Yeah. You're not here, I'm all alone. Mino was the only one who keeps us together. I almost had that feeling that I know I shouldn't. I'm sorry.
" Don't worry. I will not, " I said, wishing for this fight to stop and turns my back to him, trying to walk away.
" I know about Jinwoo hyung, "
My steps stopped automatically. Tears finally rolled down from my eyes to my cheeks. It feels as if I stopped breathing.
" Why didn't you tell me? " He asked.
I couldn't say anything. Who on earth told him about Jinwoo? I wiped my tears and turned around to him. Trying to deny everything but he sure knows it all.
" Don't lie. I know it myself. No one told me. I hate to say this myself. Hana, I am loyal. I am a very loyal person. If I liked someone, I will always love you, " He said and hold my shoulder.
Speechless was how my situation at that time. Not even one words out from my mouth. He pulled me and hugged me tightly.
" I love you, I'm sorry, " He whispered. I can feel his tears fell on my shoulder. He cried. For the first time, he cried.
I don't know why I can't reply his words. My tongue were froze. Why am I being like this?
After the fight, I stayed in my room. Not knowing what should I do. Everything got awkward and I am so blank like a white paper.
" Hana? "
I tilted my head up, looking at him.
" Hmm? "
" Let's eat dinner, " He said.
His frizzy hair and bare face, he smiled at me. I stand up and headed to the kitchen with him.
" It's been a long time we ate together, " He sounded like a husband that on abroad for years.
" Yeah "
Obviously, he ordered cold noodles from a restaurant. We finished it together. I don't know how to be better. Am I changing?
He joked with me, I let out a fake laugh. We talked, I fake all smiles. Dear heart, please don't change.
" You don't have any schedules? " I asked, hoping he got one. So that he leave me alone.
" Nope. I'm on my holiday. All of our members on their holiday, "
It seriously upsets me.
" What about the concert in Singapore? "
" Don't worry, we haven't receive the actual deadlines so yeah, " He smiles.
" I see " Am I sound too disappointed?
He holds my hands slowly, and pull me to his embracement.
No, Hanbin. Not now. I'm not in the mood for it.
He hold my neck, we got eye contact. His pure and innocent eye gazes looking at me. Staring me into eyes. Slowly, he kissed my lips. I don't even put any strength to kiss him back. Instead, I refused. I pushed his chest and looked down.
" Hey, are you okay? " He asked and pulled up my chin softly.
" Sorry. I'm so tired. Can I rest? " I asked.
No, I'm not actually tired. I just don't want you to think that I rejected your kiss and made you think I don't love you anymore or it could be I am the one who doesn't love you anymore, maybe?
" Yeah, it's okay. Lie here, " He said and tapped his laps.
" I'll just use the room. You might get tired, "
" Sure, let's sleep in the room then, " He holds my waist and we walked to my room.
I closes my eyes as soon as I laid my back on the bed. Hoping that I'll fall asleep immediately. But no.
" Good night, I love you, Jung Hana " He said softly and plays my hair.
My eyes may be closed but, I haven't sleep. Maybe because I slept for a long time earlier.
" I hope our love never change " I heard he says.
