" Jung Hana? " He asked and looked at me.
I bowed a little and said, " Sorry. I have to go, "
I walked to the cashier and paid for my things.
" Hana! Hana-ya! " He called my name.
Please. Don't follow me.
As I done paying my things, I went out of the shop. He came out too.
" Jung Hana! "
That voice. Its him.
" Stop walking! " He shouted angrily.
I stopped. Holding my precious tears coming out from my eyes. I can feel he's coming closer to me. I bit my lips. He backhugged me.
" I know its you. I am never mistaken, " He said.
" I miss you " He added.
I pushed his arms and turned to him, " What are you doing? "
" I miss you so much like crazy. I just wanna hug you, " He said and hold my other hands that didn't hold anyting.
" But I don't. Stop touching me, Kim Jinwoo, " I said and move my hands.
" You've changed, " He furrowed his eyebrows.
" People changed. You changed. I changed. The world changed. "
" But I still stays the same. I just wanna say sorry to you. For leaving y- "
I cutted his words, " Stop it. Don't mention anything about that. Please. Past is past. Lets forget it. "
" I am really sorry. " He said again and looked down.
" If you're really sorry, then forget me. I found someone else. And its not gonna be you. Its the past now. I wanna live a new life. You should move on. Live a good life. Don't even think about me. I'm not useful, " I said.
" Are you like this because you got Hanbin? " He suddenly asked.
I am not sure what to say. They are in one company. Winner and iKon is brothers. I don't want because of me, their bonds broken.
" No. Who said that? Hanbin is my friend, " I said carelessly.
" Stop lying. I know all about it. I came here because I went to their dorm and heard Hanbin talking to you with speaker on in his room. So I come here. To meet you. To see how much different you are from before. I thought you would be staying with me and never forgets me. But I'm wrong. You move on that fast, "
I don't know. I really don't know what to say anymore. I just wanna run from this situation.
And...
That Kim Hanbin, what's with him calling me with speaker on -_-
" Good then that you know it. You never know how much obstacles I've been through. My twin hates me. She dumped me. My mom sent her to my grandma. I never met her again. She hates me because of you. I've been under depression for two months but felt better because you comfort me. But who's going to comfort her? We were both hurting. But I was the only one being comforted. I'm sure grandma mad at her for being indiscipline. I was mistaken. I shouldn't have like you back. I should reject you and your kiss back then. But it happened. Its my fate. Thanks to you. Not long after that, you left me all alone. I had no one to comfort me, no one going to say good things while my sisters not there. You leave just like that- , " I was stopped.
Stopped by a kiss.
He kissed my lips deeply and holds my neck. The plastic of my things fall from my hands. My tears flowed uncontrollably. I should refuse that kiss. But I missed it. I have to admit that I really want to meet him again one day. It brought me back to the moment where he first confessed to me.
I suddenly realize to my senses and pushed his chest.
" Lets not meet again, Jinwoo-ah, " I said and picked up the plastic that I dropped. I turned my back and he started talking,
" No way. We will always meet each other sooner. You know what? No matter how much effort you or me trying to hide this thing, Hanbin still will find out the reality one day. And there, you will know who's the one who really loves you, "
" He will never find out if you close your mouth. " I said.
" We can restart, Hana-ya, " He said again.
" I have to go, " and I got into my car and drove back to my apartment.
As I arrived into my apartment, I took off my sneakers and put the plastic bag in the kitchen. I went into my bedroom and cried.
Cried my heart out. My hurting heart that has scars.
I don't know what should I do. Suddenly my phone beeped.
From: Kim Hanbin
Are you home already?
I replied his text and closed my phone. I cried again as I thought about Jinwoo.
Why he existed in my life? Why did I loved him before? Why does his kiss made me feels like I really miss him? Why is this feeling in me? I want to forget him. Out of million people, why he have to be the one who really knows Hanbin well and close with him?
