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Clouds are clearing up as I see the stars on the sky above me.
They remind me of someone, so far and out of reach. I was hoping you'd find me as I stare up in this starry sky above me, how I wish it will be this easy to stare at you from afar.
And yet again as I look above the clouds are already back hiding the stars behind it, making it more out of reach and hard to see.
Never did I get tired of staring at the sky each night just to see the stars light up above. They're beautiful in every way though as I look at it I felt empty... It's okay. I'm used to feeling this way as the cold air blows the sense of loneliness envelops me.
It was always like this. Nothings change. I never change, but maybe for once I wanted to feel something new, a sense of belongingness maybe? Or perhaps a sense of contentment.
Right now. I'm still in the midst of watching the sky as the clouds cover the stars, as the wind blew through my hair. I felt cold and its nothing new. I search to see the moon hiding from the clouds but still I can see it. Still emitting a light to get me through the night. A night of darkness.
As I lie down and wonder until when will I ever see this view. Until when will I have the courage to stay. Until when... For now I couldn't think of anything. I don't want to think of anything yet. I'll savor this moment of breathing the air and stare back at the sky that was always there. This was my comfort. My own oasis. How I'd wish I could stay until the sun rises and the moon will sleep until the sun sets.
Yet I know I could not stay any longer to watch the sun rise. My eyes are already heavy and it seems if I close my eyes I will never be able to see the stars again, breathe the air, feel the cold wind blowing through my hair and watch as the moon shines. The darkness is enveloping me now, I couldn't stay anymore. So I'll gather up my last strength to breathe and stare at the sky and let go of all the regrets I have.
As the last tear drops from my eye I automatically closed it and from here on I know its the end...
