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Dear,
Maybe you're tired of being a friend of someone like me? or maybe you just don't want me in your life anymore. I bet you have more friends than I am, I'm a difficult person to handle and to be with and I am sorry for pushing you this far.
If you don't want me in your life anymore please do inform me,I would be pleased if I would know that you have come up with a decision to tell me I'm not needed anymore. That my presence has become toxic for you, that I have become a burden to you.
I know you've been trying to cope up with my bad attitude and I'm sorry for being this way I thought you can accept me as the way I am this days but I guess you can't.
We've already been through a lot of arguments, bickering, fights and I thought the silent war we have right now can be ceased. I'm racing the white flag, I don't want this to go on. You're important to me and I don't want to lose you in this way where we don't talk and fix things like we used to. All I can think about is say "I'm sorry"...
"I'm sorry I made you feel worse."
"I'm sorry you got me as a friend."
"I'm sorry for being a toxic person."
"I'm sorry for always relying on you."
"I'm sorry for being a fvcked up mess."
"I am so so sorry for entering your life and probably I'm sorry if I stayed."
I want us to be together until the end but I guess you can never really stay. Being with a worse person like me everyday I might made you tired...
Tired of always understanding me.
Tired of always taking care of me.
Tired of always being with me.
Tired of always forgiving me.
but I hope, You're still not tired of giving me a chance. I don't want to ruin this friendship just because I was not on my right state of mind when I walked out on you. So, please do tell me if I still have a spot on your life or if you want me to leave. I'll ready myself for the emotions I will pack and the baggage that I will carry for my whole life.
I know I don't tell you this but I value every memory we had together, the negative and the positive ones.I value you not only as a friend but as a sister, that's why if ever I made you feel unwanted I want to say I'm sorry.
I still sincerely want you to be in my life.
p.s
I don't want you to leave me. I still want to be here for you, I will still be here no matter what.
