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i'm trying...
nowadays i feel suffocated,
i keep thinking about the past.
over and over again,
like there's a replay button inside my head.
an auto repeat of memories, looped inside me.
all of those that i tried to bury.
it keeps me up at night,
all thoughts that seemed so loud, it tears me apart.
like it only exist to hurt me and i allow it to hurt me.
because i feel like i can handle the emotional damage,
more than the physical damage that it inflicted on me.
nowadays...
it's surprisingly tiring,
fighting the war inside my head, making a bet with my demons.
i don't even know if i'm winning, my demons doesn't play fair.
