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Have you ever felt empty?
Have you ever felt useless?
Have you ever felt not needed?
Have you ever felt of dying?
I have.
But I can't, because I'm too scared to do it. I don't have the courage to take my own life and everyday I've been fighting my demons inside my head.
"No I can't die." I've been repeating that to myself over and over again until all of the voices inside my head would stop. But eventually it will all start again, more louder, the screamings will not stopped until you die it will not let you sleep.
I wanted to shut down myself but I can't I have so many things, unfinished businesses, regrets and dreams. Yes. I have dreams too.
Dreams that beyond all the nightmares I'm facing would eventually turn out into reality. My reality.
I wish I could hold on to the voices until I'm done with everything I wanted to do. I hope I could hold still the demons inside me conquering me slowly tainting my soul and mind.
Until then I'll do everything I can to live.
