Testimony

50. Trouble In Paradise

Nicki- mmm, that's good huh?

I was feeding Razah and Razlynn their breakfast this morning while Meek slept in. Razlynn got up extra early this morning and so did Razah so we were just up.

Nicki- how about you learn how to feed yourself so mommy can feed your sister.

He shook his head no. My baby was definitely advanced for his age. At 11 months he's was already walking and saying words. His level of understanding was out of this world in my opinion.

Nicki- look, just hold the spoon and put it in your mouth like this. Now you try it

I put some apple sauce on his little spoon and instead of it going in his mouth, he got it all over his face.

Nicki- good job baby, even tho 50% of it is on your face.

Razah- Meeeeeek!

Meek- who is that? I don't know who Meek is. My name is daddy. Say daddy.

Razah- daddyyyyy!

Meek- good job

He took Razlynn from me and finished feeding her while I cleaned up Razah's mess.

Meek- what's wrong with you?

Nicki- nothing

Meek- well why you actin like that?

Nicki- how am I actin?

Meek- like you got a problem

Nicki- if I had a problem then I'd tell you

Meek- ight Nicki

Nicki- come on, let's get down

I picked him up out of his high chair and put him on the floor. I handed him his sippie cup and he took off to the living room. I cleaned up the kitchen and walked right past Meek who was watching my every move.

Meek- come her

Nicki- I'm really not in the mood for the bull shit this morning Meek.

Meek- what bull shit? Come here.

Nicki- what?

Meek- what's the problem?

Nicki- I said I didn't have one

Meek- I don't care what you said because I can tell theirs a problem by lookin at you. So what's up?

Nicki- I just feel like I been doin everything by myself while you go out and sleep in whenever you want.

Meek- I only been out 2 days

Nicki- and our daughter is 6 days old! You shouldn't even wanna go out.

Meek- i shouldn't have to be stuck in the house either

Nicki- I am!

Meek- and that's ya choice. You can go out if you want to.

Nicki- and I don't! That's the point im trying to make.

Meek- so what Nicki, you want me to stop going out?

Nicki- your grown, you can do whatever you want.

Meek- so why we havin this conversation then?

Nicki- because you asked me what was wrong" I said with attitude.

Meek- well next time I won't ask

Nicki- then don't, I don't care!

Meek- ight...

I went upstairs to the bedroom and left him downstairs with both kids. I was just about done with everything at this point. I was stressed beyond measures. Getting 2-3 hours of sleep a night and then having to get up and take care of two kids by myself was not apart of my plans. Seeing Meek sleep in and leave whenever he wanted really pissed me off . Whatever he was doing couldn't be more important than staying home with me and his kids.

Meek- come on" he said to Razah who was waddling behind him.

He lifted him up on the bed and he crawled over to me and laid on my stomach. Meek laid on the bed too and laid Razlynn on his chest. We sat there in silence just watching tv.

Meek- so you not talkin?

Nicki- what are we talking about?" He chuckled

He got up and laid Razlynn is her bassinet.

Meek- we'll talk when I get back

Nicki- so you didn't listen to shit I said did you?

Meek- I did

Nicki- and you still gone leave huh?

Meek- if I don't I might do somethin Ima regret

Nicki- yeah ok.

He got up and went to the bathroom. When he came out he slipped on some clothes and then kissed the kids before leaving. I was so pissed that I just went to sleep.

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Nicki- so how is it down there?

Carol- I love it, it's beautiful. I wish you guys could come down and visit.

Nicki- we will soon mom, but it would be cheaper for me to come down here tho.

Carol- well whenever your ready I'll pack my bags

Nicki- I'll let you know really soon.

Carol- ok. How are my grandkids?

Nicki- their good. Getting bigger by the day.

Carol- yep, that's what they do. They are truly beautiful. How's Meek?

Nicki- I don't know. He's been really getting on my nerves lately. I don't know what's wrong with him.

Carol- it's probably just the stress of having a new born that's getting to him.

Nicki- well I don't know what he's so stressed about, he never does anything.

Carol- oh Nicki, it'll get better. This is a faze that all parents go through. You guys are still young too.

Nicki- I'm just getting really fed up.

Carol- well you love him don't you?

Nicki- yes

Carol- well as long as the love is still there then everything will be fine. Just give him time.

Nicki- we don't have time mom, we have kids to raise.

I look up at Meek standing in the door way.

Nicki- um mom, I'll call you back later.

Carol- ok honey, love you.

Nicki- love you too, bye.

Meek- so I'm gettin on ya nerves?

Nicki- yes

Meek- ight

He took off his shoes and jewelry before leaving the room. He never came back that night.

* I KNOW I SAID ONE MORE CUTE CHAPTER BUT I LIED ( NICKI VOICE ).
* DONT BE IN YALLS FEELINGS BECAUSE YALL KNOW YALL LIKE THE DRAMA.