Jesus Christ its been forever since I've posted. I'm really sorry about that but I kinda went through some shit. I don't know if I've mentioned Oliver before but we don't really talk anymore. He made me feel horrible and that's not something I need. But as of yesterday I've been on testosterone for 7 months and I've never been so happy with myself. I've still had issues with depression and dysphoria but its definitely better than it was. I'm so comfortable with myself and my gender that I've dyed my hair pink a few times. As of right now its pink in the front, purple in the middle, and blue in the back so ot all kinda fades. Its pretty cool.
I don't know if I ever before mentioned wanting to play the bass clarinet in band but I finally started it. I love playing it and it sounds so nice. My only issue is breathing. Because I bind I don't have much power in my air stream and bass clarinet is an instrument you need a lot of strength and support so my range sucks. At least I have one full octave though.
I asked my dad about top surgery and he said definitely not until I'm 18 which sucks but whatever. He's scared something will happen and I'll bleed out or something. I totally understand his fear but honestly binding for another two years (meaning I will have been binding for a total of four years) is more dangerous than surgery but oh well. We'll see what happens. Maybe I'll play tenor sax instead cuz its so much easier.
Since the school year started I've gotten really close to my new friend Mint. He's androgyne and he gets along with my family super well and they all love him. He's my best friend. I'm dating this trans guy named Percy. I might have mentioned him in the past when he went by Wyatt or Hayden but its Percy now. He's pretty cool. I've also gotten pretty close with my only close friend thats cis. Her name is Summer and she's super chill.
So for the most part I think I've updated you guys. Things are good right now and its scary to think things might go bad again but I'm hoping they don't.
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