My Journal

August 26, 2014

So I was originally gonna update on the 19th but I got lazy and didn't want to so I'm updating now, mostly because I'm kinda sad.

Today is my last day officially of owning my dog Karli. Tomorrow my sister who is taking care of her is driving her and my other dog Dalgo to Colorado to a dalmatian rescue (Karli is a dalmatian) and they're gonna take Dalgo too.

I'm so freaking upset about this and I'm gonna miss my dogs so much. My family got Dalgo whene I was like ten and I've grown up with him. Now he's an old, grumpy man but he's fat and fluffy and an Australian Shepard and the best man ever. Karli is the sweetest, cutest, most innocent puppy ever. She's not even a puppy anymore but she still acts like one and it's the best.

Here at my dads house we have this Rottweiler named Squirt and he's old and fat and kind of reminds me of Dalgo but not as grumpy. My dad got him when I was like five or six and my grandma was the caretaker of him but she lives with my aunt and she has a dog and they don't do well together (Squirt had been attacked by the other dog) so we took him in but my step mom hates him for some reason.

My step mom pisses me off a lot because she basically dislikes everything I like and she's pretty rude about it too and she's so fucking blunt. Like, she doesn't even try to think about how to word something nicer and when she gets mad she wants to hit every living thing around.

But about a week ago I had just gotten home from band camp/my friends house. I was sitting at the table and my dad and step mom were talking and my dad was like "What'd she say? Was she nice about it?" And my step mom had this pissy look on her face and I don't think she said anything. So I was like "What'd she say about what?" And no one even said anything for like five minutes before my step mom finally said she was asking if my grandma could find someone else to take Squirt and me and my sister were pissed.

Of course we didn't say anything but we were still mad and if Squirt was gone I'd throw a fit because that's ALL of the great dogs in my life. Bear is great too but she's one of those little posh dogs. I feel bad saying that but its the truth. She's adorable and sweet but she's so fucking stupid and loud and she's always sick.

For those of you who don't really care about animals or whatever and get mad at me for being so upset about this you guys need to just leave. If you don't want me talking about how upsetting it is to not have my dogs then go away because my dogs mean a lot to me and if you don't like animals then I don't like you.

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So some shit went down since earlier. My dad was on the phone with my step mom and she brought up getting rid of Squirt again and when my dad told her no she started throwing a fit and I started crying because I'm already losing Dalgo and Karli and my step mom got annoyed at that apparently which really pisses me off.

So when she got home we were all in the living room and talking about this and like some serious things were said. Like my dad suggested just my sister and I moving out with my dad and taking Squirt with us. Also it was said that my step mom and step brother were not happy with my sister and I moving in (which we couldn't at all) and we all know that that statement was 100% true. And my dad was saying how my step mom isn't going to let up on the subject until she finally gets what she wants and that is also very true. So I finally was just like "Fuck it, my feelings don't matter. Get rid of the dog."

I didn't actually word it like that. Actuslly I said "Fine, get rid of him." And then I sobbed into my dads chest.