Hey guys. Some things have happened lately so I thought I'd update.
So you know how my step dads been trying to call me Aryn and male lronouns and all that? Well now he's gotten my siblings to do it and my brother is treating me like a little brother and its really awesome.
My mom still isnt even trying but my step dads defense for her is "She's going through mental issues right now." Which I find unfare considering I'm transgender, depressed, delusional if I'm overly depressed, and I have social anxiety which has recently gotten worse which I blame on the fact if being super fucking stressed out.
About the social anxiety. I dont think I've talked about it a lot on here but I mean I noticed it last year but it hasn't been that bad until recently. I've been really sick with my stomach totally tied in knots and today I couldn't even get help from my math teacher at lunch because he was in the lunch room and I was nauseas as hell just thinking about going in there. So with this happening I asked my mother to talk to my counsellor to see if I can do online schooling. I think she's pushing it off but I keep vugging her about it so hopefully I do get to do online schooling.
Another thing that has happened to me actually only happened to me a few minutes ago and I'm super fucking you-dont-even-know happy because I found out I saved a life which just makes me feel like I actually have a purpose for this journal thingy-ma-jig. I'm not gonna say who cause thats between me and that person and me and that person only.
Another thing is that I've been pretty happy lately. I recently stopped doing... bad things and it seems like I'm suddenly free in a way even though the thing I was doing sorta helped at the time. But it didn't. Maybe some day I'll admit to you guys what it was but for now I won't because its kind of something I could probably get in trouble with the law for and yeah.
Anyway, I love you guys loads and loads. I give all the tackle hugs and cheek kisses to everyone and I'll talk to you guys later. Bye bye!
Oh I almost forgot! I also came out as trans* to my friend James (who of which I might be secretly in love with) and he's really chill about it and I'm happy about that. Sad part is I like him and he doesn't nor like me back and he also has a boyfriend (ironically named Aaron as well). So thats sad but only little drama that is so fucking easy to deal with.
Anyway, wuvs you all!
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