Well it's 11pm so its basically already September 22 but oh well.
Tonight I went on my old quotev account and I got totally nostalgic, more than usual. I can't even explain how much I want to go home.
I miss how cold it got at night and how long the winters were even though I hated the cold so much. I miss my friends even though I lost most of them before I had to move away. I miss my old school even though I was known as a girl and my real name. I miss the way I lived before even though I shared a room with my sister and I don't really like her and the house was small and scary at night and I went through a lot there. I grew up there and I just miss it so much.
I honestly want to go back to Utah so much. I want to move in with Rayn or something. I want to go back to how things were when I was thirteen even though I was a dweeb. I liked my personality. I had accepted the way things were going and I honestly dealt with it fine but here I don't know what to do and I totally got my hopes up so bad that I don't feel like they'll go up again.
I miss how lame and emo I was. I really really just miss everything. I was lame and stupid but I loved it. Now I'm just.... I don't know what I'm like anymore. And in a few years I'll probably miss being fifteen too but I honestly have to say thirteen was a good year.
I love you guys. Thank you for sticking around for as long as you have.
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NonfiksiI'm just a transboy looking for a way to get my feelings out. If you don't respect or don't like anything lgbt+, mogai, non binary, or queer--please leave. This journal may be helpful for some people who are new to the queer community or who are thi...
