Ms. Tea and Me (Completed)

BFF

"Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang sungit mo. Sabi mo hindi mo ko mahal, oh edi okay lang na sinabi ko na ayokong maging girl friend mo..."

"Actually sabi mo gusto mong maging girl friend ko." I corrected her.

"Yun na nga. Gusto ko. Madali kang mahalin, Alden. Pero hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko na kayang magmahal ng iba. Binaon na yung puso ko nung nilibing si Jake. Saka hindi mo naman ako mahal diba? So anong drama mo ngayon? Hindi ko alam kung anong gusto mong sabihin ko. You were rude to me sa Mcdo kanina. Ano bang nangyayari sayo? Hindi ka naman ganyan dati. I mean since I met you, youre the perfect gentleman. Tapos ngayon ganito."

"Maliligo na ko." I announced. I left her in the living room her mouth wide open.

I know. I know I was rude. I know it was unbecoming of me. I know this knot in my stomach is making me make bad decisions. But I couldnt help it. The more I tried to repress it, the more it stubbornly coming out.

Maybe Jaz change me. Maybe now Im scared that someone might take Maine away from me. I know shes not mine. I dont even know what I feel for her. But still, dont I get the first dibs on her? She literally fell on my arms, for crying out loud!

I know shes not into me. And she made it clear twice today why she can never love me. But didnt she told me before that shes looking forward into meeting an english gentleman to marry?

As soon as I finished bathing, I went out of the bathroom with just a towel on my waist, wet and all.

"Clear things to me, then. Sa akin hindi na pwedeng mainlove kasi binaon mo na puso mo nung nilibing si Jake mo, pero gusto mo mainlove sa isang english gentleman, magkaanak ng dalawa and live happily ever after?"

"Alden, magbihis ka nga muna."

"Sagutin mo muna ako." I said stubbornly.

"I refused to argue with a half naked guy."

I looked at her. She wasnt looking at me but had her hands cross across her chest, lips shut, indication that she will not speak a single word until I dress up.

Like a child sent to his room, I stomped and closed the door behind me loudly.

After five minutes, Im back in the living room.

"So?"

"Alden please. Tama na."

"Just answer me."

She let out a loud sigh. "Alden, what I told you in the plane was wishful thinking. God, dont I want to believe theres happily ever after for me! But I dont have it in me anymore. Hindi mo kasi alam yung feeling na araw-araw nakikita mo yung mahal mo, slowly dying in front of your eyes. Yung gusto mo na din mamatay. O yung araw-araw kang nagdadasal sa Dyos na wag Nyang kukunin sayo yung nag-iisang nagpapasaya sayo! Tapos he died! Alam mo ba kung gaano kahirap maging masaya ulit? Alam mo ba kung gaano kahirap humahanap ng reason para gumising sa umaga?" Stream of tears flows from her eyes. I know she had kept it all bottled up inside. She probably hadnt told it to anybody. And here she is, crying, because of my stupidity.

Those tears was enough to wake me from my stupidity. I closed the distance between us.

"Im so sorry, Maine. Im so sorry. I dont know whats gotten into me. Tama na. Wag ka na umiyak."

I slowly reached out. Initially holding her hands. Hoping she let me. When she held my hand too, I embraced her. And she cried harder. And I held her tigher.

"Shhhh. Sorry na. Its me. Kasalanan ko. I was childish and stupid. Your rejection reminded me of Jaz's, and I guess I punished you for it. Sorry!"