Star Wars: The Second Coming

Chapter 5: Both of Them...

My heart was breaking. It seemed like everyone was turning on me. I didn't have any way of getting out of here but I was happy I wasn't restrained. My wrists were bruised from the tight restraints. Everything hurt. My mind, my heart, my body. I could only take so much.

I sat on the floor and held my knees to my chest. Where's Luke when you need him? I pulled my hair up into a bun and wiped my bloody face. I sat there and I tried to reach my sisters mind. I couldn't reach out to her. And frankly, I don't know if I can help her. I've lost my family. Anyone I ever cared about. "Kya come back please" I spoke as if she could hear me. And maybe she could. Maybe she could hear it in her mind.

I layed in the corner and I held myself close. I wanted to be home. I could feel myself falling apart but I didn't want to give up. I felt the anger building up more and more. I forced any loose objects away from me and flying into the walls around me. I was angry. I was angry that I lost my family, I was angry that I couldn't find Luke without the whole map, I was angry that I couldn't control my anger. I could feel it. Darkness. I don't want to feel it. I don't want to be that way. I don't want to disappoint Rey or  Luke. I don't want to be this way and that makes me angry. They were getting in my head and that makes me angry.

I sat here for hours drowning in my thoughts. I sat there and thought about how much I missed my family. I missed everything. And it hurt. It hurt so bad. I could feel myself begin to cry silently. All of this was beginning to be too much but I had to try to keep calm. I didn't want to. I wanted to just let myself be angry but I don't want to act on anger. I can't let them get into my head that easy.

I didn't know what time it was but all I knew was that I was absolutely exaughsted. I layed down on the cold hard metal and tried to fall asleep. Old memories and dark thoughts swarmed my mind. I tried my best to clear my mind. Everything pummeled my broken mind and I felt anger and hate form in my stomach. The nasty feeling. The feeling I've been running away from for so long. I clentched my fists and I crushed everything in the room with the force. I sat down and cried. I could not let them see that I was angry or felt hate. They would take advantage of that. Use it against me. Try to persuade me. I won't let it happen.

I got up and paced the room as I thought of how I could get out. I knew there were gaurds at the door. I knew that they would come back. There wasn't much I could do.

I layed back down on the cold floor. I was completely drained. I felt his presence. Ben quickly walked in. I coukd feel his anger. His lifted me up and chocked me. "Where is the map?!" He demanded angrily. I couldn't get any words out. I couldn't get any air in or out. I looked at his face one last time before I passed out. "Ben...." was all I was able to speak.