Star Wars: The Second Coming

Chapter 21: D'qar

I sent storm troopers looking everywhere for the fugitives. All of them came back. "Nothing, sir" I nodded. She was right. "We will leave to D'qar tomorrow" I said, boarding the ship with storm troopers following. "I was right wasn't I?" I heard her speak behind me. Before I said anything I turned around. She didn't have her mask on. The bruises and small cuts on her face infuriated me. I nodded. She smiled a little bit and I followed her to her room. We had to get to D'qar asap. I was ready to rest a bit before anything.

I layed down next to her. I could feel her sadness and anger. It radiated from her. I wanted to help her but I wasn't sure how. She's shutting me out. I hated not knowing what was going on with her. I know it's forbidden to even be attached but I can't help it. I want her to know how I feel but I don't even know what this feeling is. I don't understand it and it makes me angry. Is this the light? Is this what it feels like? If so, I need to destroy it. I can't let myself become weak because of these foreign feelings. I got lost in my thoughts and I began to drift to sleep.

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I felt a hand on face. "Ben, wake up" i heard a soft voice whisper. "Mom?" I mumbled and sat up. "You had a nightmare" She whispered giving me a hug. Her familiar caring arms wrapped around me. I was in my old room. Before they sent me away. I could feel tears form in my eyes. "I'm so sorry" I mumbled into her. "It's not your fault. It never was" She whispered and stroked my hair to calm me down.

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"Ben, come home please!" I heard a familiar voice yell. "You took her away from me!" The same voice yelled. "We have to kill her" another voiced whispered. "She's standing in my way of complete darkness!" Kya yelled. "I won't fight you" the other voice yelled. Alexia? "I won't hurt you!" She yelled. I could feel Kya's pain. Everyone's pain mixed with mine. It became overwhelming. I ignited my lightsaber and slashed at the trees around me. The constant pull between both sides. The pain. The anger. So much anger!

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I jolted awake my body covered in sweat. I sat up and layed my head in my hands. The nightmares where almost constant. I could never get a good night's rest. Kya tossed and turned next to me. I wondered if she was having a nightmare. I wondered why she wouldn't tell me what was wrong. "It's forbidden! You can't love! You can't become weak!" I told myself in my thoughts. She's pushing me away and maybe that's for the best. We can become stronger if we hate each other. Then again, how could I hate her. These feelings, they aren't for nothing. "You'll never be as strong as your grandfather" I told myself again. I can't let her become my weakness. Is it already too late for that? Probably.

Everything about her swarmed my mind. Her power, her face, the way she talked. I keep these feelings locked inside. I can't tell her what I think. I can't let her in my head. I must become strong. I can't let whatever this is stop me. I can't! She brought of the worst in me. The person I'm trying so hard to destroy. Myself, perhaps. But that is not me. She brings that person out again. The light. I can feel it everytime we touch. I have to destroy Ben. I can no longer be him. Ben is gone.