Star Wars: The Second Coming

Chapter 42: You Will Not Take Her From Me

This new information was not necessarily unexpected. I knew something was off. I could feel it. I could sense it and yet she is still getting a chance. I could see why but at the same time I didn't understand. She could still be of use to us but now there is a definite chance of betrayal and that is something we can't afford. Kya must see something in her. My family. She's powerful. It makes sense. I can feel the light diminishing within her. I can't feel it within Kya. I can't feel her confliction.

I watched over everyone in the control room. I stood on the main deck. My thoughts betray me. At this point, I don't know who I should trust. The Supreme Leader favors her. She's different. Her eyes are different. It kills me and deep down, I only have myself to blame for her pain.

I feel a presence behind me. Alexia. "Ben- Uh Kylo- Ren?" She whispered loud enough for me to hear. I still cringe at my old name. The name my mother an father gave me. It serves no meaning for me.

"What is it?" I turned my head to listen. She seemed off. I could sense her fear. I was certain Kya told her what she was going to have to do. I could sense her confliction. 

"Her eyes..." She trailed off and I froze. She walked next to me.

"I've noticed it too" I replied. She wasn't Kya anymore. She's not who I fell in love with but I am the one who made her this way. I should have helped her. I should have treated her the way I truely felt about her. My allegiance to the darkside diminished that feeling. I must stay faithful.

"Why are you here? Why did you lie?" I turned to face her. I had no idea why, if she lied, she'd have the courage to come here. Was it because of Kya?

She opened her mouth to say something. She shut it as fast as it opened. I felt it too. She was here. We both turned to face her. No emotions on her face, nothing. Alexia left the room and it was just me and Kya now. I scanned her. Everything about her. She was beautiful, despite the darkness that consumes her. She will always be beautiful.

"Look at what you've become." I spoke to her, my voice broke. She showed no emotion. I took off my helmet.

"Powerful? More powerful then you. You're the one who made me this way." I knew that was true. I made her this way, it's my fault she pushed me away.

"I never wanted you to become to cold towards me. I never wanted you to push me away" I looked away from her stone gray eyes. The words echoed in the room. The tension between us was heavy.

"Are you not proud of who I have become? Are you not proud of what you made me?" I could see emotion. I could feel her hurt.

"You're stronger then I could ever hope for. I am proud of you but I miss you. You've pushed me away and I know that is my own doing." I spoke, my words genuine. I miss her so much.

"You are weak" She put her mask on and she left me alone with my thoughts. I felt like I have failed her, or maybe I have failed myself. Maybe I'm the one who's not being faithful towards her.

It felt like snoke was using her against me. Making her hate me. I know most of it was just me. I made her hate me and that makes her stronger but he favors her. She is my apprentice. She is mine. I will not lose her.