Star Wars: The Second Coming

Chapter 32: Lost In Thoughts

I feel so angry. This was too much. Too many lies. I've been living this whole time thinking I was no one. Thinking Kya was my sister. I can't believe they all lied to me. Does Kya know about any of this? She can't know about the power she wields. It's dangerous. She dangerous. Does that mean I am too? My family line. I sat in the small room. I feel so lost.

I layed down on the bed and I tried to clear my.conflicted mind. I still want to believe the light is where I'm supposed to be but I feel so betrayed. My own father kept this from me. Who I thought was my sister didn't even have a father. Just like my grandfather. "Do not be angry at your father. He wanted to keep you safe" I heard a voice speak to me but I couldn't see anything. "The force is strong with you. Do not underestimate your own power" I heard it again. I looked around and I saw him. Almost a ghostly figure. He had a friendly face, a scar over one eye. "I'm Anakin, your grandfather" He spoke to me. Why did he come to me. "You feel lost. I know this is all a lot to take in, to understand. You mustn't lose your faith of the light side. You have to keep fighting" He reassured me. "I can't fight her, if she knows the limit of her power, she will destroy me. As much as she's not my blood, I still love her" I mumbled, holding back tears. "You must let go. You can't hold on to attachments. That also means you need to let go of the one you love. She will use her against you" He was right. "I can't lose her" I mumbled. "Don't lose yourself trying to save her." He spoke before he faded away.

I heard a knock on the door. Luke entered the room. "I understand" I mumbled before he could speak. "I wanted to keep you safe. If anyone knew, they would use it against me, against you. I wasn't going to let that happen to you, so I did what I had to do." He sat next to me. "You don't have to explain" I mumbled. I gave him a hug. "I'll do anything to keep you safe" He mumbled. "Get some rest, we will train tomorrow" He spoke calmly before leaving the room.

I layed down and drowned in my thoughts. I don't know what all of this meant. I don't know if I'm supposed to. I don't know why Anakin came to me. "Alexia?" I heard Rey speak up. I turned over. She came and layed next to me. "I'm sorry" She whispered and wrapped her arms around me. "Don't" I whispered. "No more secrets" I mumbled and turned towards her. I couldn't take being lied to again. Not like that.

I kissed her gently and I tried my best to fall asleep. With my luck, I most likely won't get any sleep tonight. I have to figure out how I'm going to over come this confusion within me. The dark side calls to me but I don't want to answer. Not that I'm afraid, I don't think that's what I'm destined for. I want to believe the good within all of this.