Star Wars: The Second Coming

Chapter 26: Mother

I went into a spare room and abbliterated it. I won't let myself become weak. Perhaps I should let her push me away. Maybe it'd be better that way, but even the thought of that made my chest hurt. Before I could break anything else I was interrupted. "Sir, uh, we've made it to D'qar" the nervous storm trooper spoke. I nodded and I headed out of the destroyed room.

Kya was already prepared for anything, although I coud feel her distraught. "Are you-" She cut me off. "Don't worry about me, Ren" She spoke coldly, walking out of the ship. I followed behind. The storm troopers followed behind us shooting anyone who go in our way. Me and Kya wen to the back, flanking anyone who was ready in the front. We snuck in the base. I know Snoke ordered for reinforcements to over power the Resistance. I coukd hear the kaos being caused in the front. "We just have to get them and get out. Kill anyone who stands in your way" I spoke to her and she nodded.

We headed down the hall to the front. I'd assume they'd be there. I can feel their presence. They were close. "I can feel her" She said while running the other way. I started to kill anyone who got in my way. I looked around, scanning for Rey. I stopped. Leia. "Mom" I whispered to myself. The guilt and anger built up inside. I took off my helmet. She turned her head and our eyes locked. "Ben!" I could barely hear her yell. I felt it. The pull. My heart broke once more. I couldn't let it weaken me. Her face, so much pain. All of it was my fault. She started to walk this way. I knew she wanted me back home. I couldn't go back. I got angry. I became angry at myself. I CANT let the light in. I can't let it weaken me. I was pulled from the moment. "Kylo!" Kya yelled from behind pulling my arm. "Kylo, they're escaping!" She yelled and we both headed towards the hanger to see that they had already left. We ran back to were my mother and the wookie were. We locked eyes again. The sadness in her eyes. I couldn't even hear the chaos around me.

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"Don't send me away! Please don't make me go!" My younger self yelled at my parents. They looked at me with sad eyes and then they looked at  each other. "You'll be okay. You will be able to control your gift" my mother said, kneeling down and laying her hands on my shoulders. "Like the Jedi?" I asked her as the tears slowly feel from my cheeks. She nodded and a smile crept on her face. "You'll be okay, kid. We will be here when ya get back. I can promise you that." My father spoke. A sense of sadness in his voice.

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They let me go. They abandoned me and that fueled my hatred. The left ME. "Kylo, are you okay?" Kya spoke up, pulling me from my head. I hadn't realized that she had been talking this whole time.  "Oh- Uh-" I stumbled on my words. "What are we going to do?" She asked. "We're going to find out where they're going" I spoke. "If General Leia hadn't left already, we can get information out of her. You go find her and I'll make sure everyone else is dead." I spoke coldly and I made my way outside the base.

I sat outside, my fists clinched. I felt the anger and guilt. It was consuming me. It was all I knew. This pain, this darkness. It's all I know. I let my memories flood my thoughts. I let myself remember the pain, but only to make me stronger. I needed to be stronger.

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I felt the stress within myself. The pull within both sides. "Ben you've been acting strange" I heard a younger Kya speak. "I'm fine" I mumbled. "Ben, why won't you tell me what's going on?" She asked sitting next to me. "I'm fine, come one we have to do our studies" I spoke. And with that we both left the room.

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I killed everyone. I couldn't find Alexia or Kya. I closed my eyes and felt there presence. They were still here. I coukd their fear. I searched every room until I found them. Scared to death. I looked at Kya's little sister, tears streamed down her scared face. Then I looked at Kya, confusion, anger, fear, sadness. The tears fell from her eyes but she was silent. I couldn't kill them. I couldn't kill the one I love. I turned around and left the room. I was hurting her. Luke was nowhere to be found. I left the temple.

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The guilt and anger I felt that day. I thought about how my mother and father felt when they found out. I didn't want to hurt them. I didn't want to hurt Kya. This pain that has always been there broke me. I wanted more power. I wanted to rule the galaxy. I still do. I don't know if I have the strength to do it.

I couldn't let any of my weaknesses ruin my chances of ruling the galaxy. I won't let anything stand in my way.