I Found You: A Nathan Sykes Fan Fic

Chapter 25 ~ What is Happening?

Melody's Perspective

"...dead" Siva finished with his legs shaking and tears forming in the cracks of his eyes and starting to fall down.

"No, you're lying," I cried. My legs gave way and I fell to the ground.

I didn't care that people were staring at me then, but most were out of sympathy. The hospital is here to give hope and then crush it terribly.

I looked up at Siva and he was about ready to crumble. "I-I need to go see the other lads." he told me.

He took my hands to help me stand and supported most of my weight as he led me to the others. It must not have crossed his mind that it might not be a good idea to face any of them but under the circumstances it didn't matter.

But.

Nathan?

Dead?

I didn't think that could be possible. The doctors should have done everything in their power to save him. It is their fault that Nathan is dead. Except the more I try to convince myself that it isn't my fault the more I don't believe it because it is. It was my idiocy and Siva is just so compassionate. But I know a part of him believes it to be his fault. I can see it in his eyes.

What I saw before me was devastating. 

Nathan's mom and sister were in tears as the enveloped each other in their arms. His mom met my eyes and I shivered. She knows who I am. I couldn't tell if there was anger in them because her tears blurred everything.

The rest of the lads and Big Kev were not that far away from them. They were all crying, except Big Kev but it must have been because he was trying to be strong for all of them.

Jay was sitting against the wall his head in his hands as he bawled. It was easy to tell that he was the one taking it the worst. Max was trying to cheer Jay up as best as he could but he was failing.

They were suffering and it was all my fault.

When Tom saw Siva, he hurriedly went up to him and hugged him as he cried which forced Siva to break his contact with me. Siva's tears became more prominent.

Big Kev has taken notice in me but he does nothing and only stares at me. I take this as a good sign that he won't try anything. I'm the first to break his eye contact and go to sit next to Jay. I don't know how Tom and Max feel towards me at the moment but I know Jay doesn't have any harsh feelings towards me that I know of.

My legs shake as I go to kneel down beside Jay and I place my hand on his back. My vision has become really blurry at this point and my heart is broken.

I hear Max's soft, comforting words towards Jay. "Jay, please, it's going to be okay. We'll get through this. Jay. It's not your fault. You couldn't have done anything."

His words bring on more tears and my voice chokes.

He is dead.

"Jay," I whispered. At my voice he looked up at me. His eyes were blood shot and all I could see was darkness. He looked gone. Not like Jay at all. Tears streamed down his cheek endlessly and he didn't move to wipe away a single one.

Jay's Perspective

One fifth of me is broken. Dead. Max, Tom, Nathan, and Siva all make up one fifth of me from the moment we were put together. There was tension between us when we first met because we always wanted to be the best. We served our country and did everything in our power to protect the queen.

We became much closer when we went under cover as The Wanted. We had many lessons and were put to the test when we were ready. The Wanted went on tours to keep up with the act and eventually it was what I loved to do. I loved spending time with my mates.