My Journal

Words Hurt

So, this is a 100% true story. I'm really stressed out and tired of stuff so I've decided to start this. This is really about myself and my experience. I'm only fourteen so there might not be a lot of experience in here but... here I go.

As a little kid I even knew I was different but I didn't know how. I had always copied stuff my older brother did and my almost step brother did because I wanted to be a boy. My brother was in to Yugi-oh so I wanted to do it then he got in to Pokémon and I wanted to do it and I just tried to be like him so much.

When I got a little older I was embarrassed very easily and stopped that stuff because I thought a girl acting like a boy was a bad thing and I don't know. I just stopped that stuff.

Then in seventh grade, when I was twelve, I got a friend who I became very close with and I ended up telling her about my life long wanting to be male. But that friendship ended fast and horribly but I don't want to talk about that.

Now, I just got out of eighth grade and I just turned fourteen. I have a couple friends I've told that I am transgender and one of them is also transgender. Sadly most of my friends are online and I've recently been banned from talking to any of them. So now I only have two people I can talk freely to about this issue but they are both out of town and won't be back until the school year starts again and they aren't even in the same grade as me. They are both a grade under me and are staying at the middle school while I go to high school with my other friends who aren't as close. To be honest I'm scared.

I guess I will update another time because I'm gonna go to sleep right now. Goodnight everyone, please no hate for this story. And it would even be nice if people could comment advice or something.