Newt x reader

Chapter Forty- Nine

"Hey love? (Y/n)? You okay?" Newt's voice calls from a distance. You are tempted to answer back, but do you really want him seeing you like this?

Sitting far away in a field, you give yourself time to cry, and hopefully dry your tears before he catches up to you, unsure of how to explain your distance. Maybe if you pull away from everyone, it will be easier....

No, you can't do that to Newt. You are not going to disconnect from the only source of love you've ever had in your life. You can't do that to him, or to yourself. New tears begin to form at the thought.

" (Y/n)?" Newt has caught up to you, and you hastily wipe your tears away before turning to him, and he can easily see that you had been crying.

Pulling you into his arms, he whispers into your ear, "Hey, it's okay, you're safe. You don't have to worry about him ever again. Ever, you hear me? It's all okay."

"But the trial... what if they don't believe me?" It's too much, the tears start to run again, and Newt just grabs you and holds you tight.

"It's all going to be okay, love. We're going to win," he holds you to his chest, and just let's you cry, knowing that this is what you need.

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The nightmares have been getting worse, and you don't know what to do. You wake up in the middle of the night every night shaking and sobbing. And, without wanting to disturb anybody, you end up just sitting in the dark alone, waiting for the sun to come up.

But other than that, things are getting better. You're going to school, hanging out with Newt, Minho, and Tommy in your free time, your grades are getting better, slightly, and you're safe.

So why can't you escape your fear?