grindr ❯ joshler

"i love you more than words can ever describe."

3:37 AM

mocha ☕️❤️: my dearest joshua, my love, my rock, my world, my savior. i love you more than words can ever describe. you make me so fucking happy. whether its your dumb ideas or your stupid grin that gets me every damn time, it just makes me fall in love with you more and more each time. i know what you're thinking, 'oh please don't tell me he's breaking up with me.' but trust me, i could and would never would do that to you, EVER. god i love you so so much. when you're sleeping next to me at night, i lie there thinking about all the good you've put in my life, how much happier you've made me. now, i didn't plan on telling you this way, but i'm too shy so it seems to be the easiest form. for about 5-6 years, i've been diagnosed as depressed. along with that, i also have severe anxiety - in many forms actually. it runs between Generalized Anxiety Disorder to my Social Phobia. when I joined grindr, i was extremely afraid of the outcome. I was afraid of being afraid to talk to new people, afraid of their opinions on me, you know.. but when you came, it was like my social anxiety never existed. you were (and still are) so easy to talk to. you helped me come out of my shell. so thank you, thank you so fucking much because honestly, i felt trapped. there's still more about my mental illnesses, but i'll talk to you about those other things later, i just kinda wanted to focus on the main things. i hope you still love me after finding out the sick things wrong with me. i'm not as fine as i seem, josh. my mind is fucked up. i love you okay? i love you so so so so so so much and i'd be devastated if you were to ever leave me. please don't, i beg of you, josh. please don't ever leave me. that is the one thing i need you to promise me, to never leave me. god only knows what would happen to me. you're sleeping right now, so i know you'll read this when you wake up, i'll most likely be sleeping. anyways, i wanted to say i love you one last time in this message. so, i love you joshua. more than you'll ever know. and the funny thing is, is that i love saying those three words to you. it makes me so happy, hell, YOU make me happy. all in all,, i love you, hehe. thank you for making me a better me.

ps, good morning baby, you mean the world to me.

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that morning, josh woke up to the very long message from his lover. tears were shed, lots of them. he finished reading the paragraph with the biggest smile on his face. he knew it must've taken tyler so so much to tell him these things. and josh was willing to do anything, absolutely anything to make him better, and to make him feel loved, to make him feel like he is special, one of a kind. he loved this boy with ever fiber in his goddamn body.

7:56 AM

cotton candy ☁️🍬: i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you so fucking much tyler. thank you, thank you for opening up to me. i promise to never ever leave you. i promise to treat you like the princess you are, i promise to never hurt you, never yell at you.i promise to take care of you and zipper like my life depends on it. i promise to always be by your side no matter what. i'm so thankful for you, and i thank god every moment of the day for you. thank you for being you. i love you tyler.

ps, good morning you cute muffin, i hope you got enough sleep, and i'll be here when you wake up.

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read 8:02 AM

a/n, i originally planned this to be the final chapter, but i think i might extend it to 30 chaps just because of how the story line is right now. and quite frankly, i'm kinda winging this story lol. but here is an extra sappy chapter, have a nice night. x