grindr ❯ joshler

"my dearest joshua my sweet sweet boy."

lately tyler has been thinking a lot. every once in a while, he is reminded on how much love he has for josh. he wants to spill out his feelings - not verbally to josh of course, but maybe on paper. "where's my journal?" he says to himself. he gets up from his warm spot on their shared bed, that tyler cherishes oh so much, and goes over to his desk where his sacred journal lays atop. he took out a pen and started messily writing.

my dearest joshua, my sweet, sweet boy. i feel as if i don't tell you enough, and i probably do, but i love you. i love you so so much, joshua. the happiness you give me just makes me so ecstatic and makes my heart fill with joy. i want to list the things i love about you, it'll take a while, but that's okay. and my hand might fall off once i finish this note to you, but that's okay as well. because i'm willing to do anything and everything for you. so let me start, shall i? oh, and keep in mind, i might jump from one thing to another, whatever comes to my head is going to be written on this paper. that's how my brain works, just hang in there for me, yeah?

okay well, for starters, i absolutely love how adorable you are. you have the most beautiful smile. your teeth are amazingly perfect too. did you have braces when you were younger? hmm, lets see. oh, there's your voice. i love that voice of yours. it makes you sound manly even though you're a small kitten who wouldn't hurt a fly. hell, you wouldn't hurt an ant, what am i talking about?! your laughs and giggles make me so happy as well. you see, babe, when you perform those actions, it gives me a sense of happiness also. knowing that you are happy makes me happy. ooh and when you laugh or smile, you give the cheekiest smile. your eyes squint and you give the biggest toothiest grin. my heart flutters every time.

i love your hugs and kisses. when your arms are wrapped around me, it gives me hope and a feeling of safety. i've never had that with someone before. so i thank you for that. and when you kiss me. oh god, i love it when you kiss me. you have the softest pair of lips i've ever felt. i love it when you bite my lip as we make out, that's A) really hot which always ends up into something great, B) its sexy, and C) eh i got nothing, its just reallllyyyyy hot.

hmm what else do i love about you? oh! your cuddles. those are amazing. you give the best cuddles, joshy. i always find myself wrapped up around you like i'm your blanket. and for some reason, my head is always placed right where your armpit is! have you noticed that? you're lucky you have an amazingly scented deodorant, otherwise i'd be as far away from you as possible. kidding, maybe, who knows. i really like it when you have your arms around my waist and you pull me as close to you as possible. its so nice and its such a great feeling, honestly. i feel protected when you do that. oh and sometimes when we're laying in bed side by side and you pick me up to where i'm laying on top of you. you like move my arms around your neck and our feet always get tangled within each other. its cute, you're cute!

sigh there are so so so so many things i could list about you, i could go on for hours on end just talking about how sweet you are and how much you care for me. it means so much to me that you're doing this. i've always had a false sense of hope when it came to relationships. though i'm afraid i'm going to have to cut this letter short, you just got home from the grocery store. i promise i'll make a part two to this. i love you so much, joshua william.

with all my love in the whole wide world, the man who's deeply in love with you, tyler.

tyler clicked his pen shut and closed his journal, turning his head behind him when he heard the door squeak,

"hi baby" josh smiled, which made tyler's heart flutter.

"joshy! i've missed you!" tyler exclaimed, getting up from his chair to tackle josh in hugs and kisses.

ooooooohhhh myyyy goooooddddddd my hearttttttttttttt :^)