Unpredictable: Calum Hood fanfiction

Chapter 36

Just a fair warning this chapter is going to be shorter than all my other ones, I just really want to get an update for you guys on here.

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Calum's P.O.V

Nearly two hours pass and Victoria is sound asleep with her forehead pressed firmly against her wall and her legs pulled up to her chest, clinging onto them tightly. I wish I could flip her over so I could have her in my arms but she looks too damn cute in her little ball, so I'll just let her be.

I'm still in absolute shock from what happened earlier. For starters I didn't know she could take control like that, and to follow up it all started out of no where. One second she's telling me how she's glad we're together and the next she's nearly completely naked on top of me.

Have I ever been so hard in my life? Probably not.

The fact that she's one of the purest girls I've ever met but still knows how to turn me on just by looking at me is insane. She can blink and suddenly I'm craving her even more than I was the minute before.

I crave her.

One thing about her scares me though, and that is her purity. I know her like the back of my hand. If I were to take her virginity, and God-forbid we don't work out, she'd be crushed. I'm not one to think virginity is a big deal, it's just some made up thing that belittles a woman's worth, but I know Victoria would want to lose it to someone special.

Am I special enough for her?

Hell no.

She's perfect, so perfect it almost pisses me off.

My fingers trace her back and begin to play with her hair, in complete awe of how I managed to make this girl mine.

She's been through hell and back and has managed to not let it break her. Unlike me. I'm jealous of my own girlfriend.

I've been through some tough shit but I could have either let it make or break me, and it's clear which one I chose. I depend more on alcohol than I do the help of my friends. I would rather smoke a blunt than tell my own girlfriend how I'm feeling. I've nearly killed myself from taking so many Morphines just to forget for a little while, all because a devil woman had to take my innocence away for her own gratification.

I quickly push myself off the bed, shoving through my pockets to find my package of cigarettes and quietly make my way downstairs and out the front door. Making sure the door doesn't slam, I prop myself on the porch and pull out a cigarette, lighting it and taking a long drag before exhaling deeply.

I really need to quit smoking these. Victoria hates them and I do too, but they're the only thing that keeps me from drowning myself in vodka.

My mind is racing through everything possible right now and I can't keep up with it. I keep playing back the time Luke sat me down and said I needed professional help, and sometimes I think he's right, but that's for crazy people. The first step to making a problem real is admitting it's a problem, so until then you don't have to worry.

I ash the cigarette in the grass before placing it between my lips again while using my other hand to pull my phone from my pocket. It's 6:21 in the morning and it's not even light outside yet. What the hell.

My mind stops speeding through memories when I hear the front door open behind me, expecting it to be Victoria but slightly disappointed when I see it's her mum.

"Oh hi, I didn't know you were out here." She nervously laughs and I smile while blowing smoke from my lips.

"Sorry, I couldn't sleep. Also sorry you're seeing me smoke, I know it's gross." I admit and she takes a seat beside me.

"You're right, they are, but I'm not one to judge. Victoria has told me a lot about you."

I guess she sees my eyes go wide and she laughs almost a little too loud for 6 in the morning.

"Don't worry, honey. No details. Just that you've had a hard life."

"Yeah, I guess you could say that. It just helps me cope when my head won't shut up." I throw the cigarette on the cement and stop it with my shoe, putting it out. "I'll make sure to throw that away."

"Calum, obviously you know about my husband, so I just would like to give you some motherly advice. I don't know what you've been though, but I can tell you're hurt. I am too, still, and it's been a year. But, I guess where I'm going with this is don't let it ruin you. You have good intentions, I can tell. You make my daughter absolutely mad, and I haven't seen her this way in a long time. You always have us."

My heart actually hurts at how nice this woman is. Literally, it hurts.

"Thank you. I haven't been this happy in years until me and Victoria." I pause when her nose scrunches like Victoria's does at the sound of her full name. "I really love your daughter."

"And she loves you, try to get some rest." She places a quick kiss on my head before returning back inside and I've never felt more welcomed to a place in my life.

Everyone is right. I control my life.

Things will only go up from here.

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This chapter was just to give you a little insight on calum and how he thinks of things and how is mind is.

Sorry it's a little bad, I'll do some editing soon. 

Love you long time