Unpredictable: Calum Hood fanfiction

Thank you.

I haven't gotten much sleep the past few days, and I won't lie to you and say I've been feeling fantastic either. But you guys never fail to amaze me with your compassion and generosity. It's astounding. The amount of love and support I receive from you all daily is shocking. It gives me a reason to keep going.

I have received a few nasty messages, but the good words definitely mean way more. I'm looking into therapy to hopefully find a better way to cope with my feelings.

A lot of people ask me why I don't update, and to be honest, it's simply because I want to deliver the best I can for you all. I don't want to half-ass something just to get it out there. I want to give you guys my all because that's what you deserve. But because of my personal issues its been clouding my thoughts and making me unable to write at my best.

As for you all giving me advice on my past struggles, thank you. Really. Thank you. The fact you all can see past the girl I used to be and realize I have changed means the world. Not everyone has been so open and welcoming and it just warms my heart.

For those wondering how I'm doing, I'm not great, but I am better. I'm realizing everything you all told is true. I am more than the girl who used to have drug problems. I am more than my past abuse. I thought I was weak, but I'm not. I'm strong. I've survived. I make mistakes every now and then, but it's made me who I am.

I read all of your comments and messages. I hear and process everything each and every one of you say. I know you're all right. It's hard to easily move on, and it will take time, but I do know you're all right. 100 percent.

Please. Please please please message me if you ever need anything. It's hard to reply but I will definitely get to you one day. I love you all.

We're all a family. You guys push me harder every day, and I will forever be grateful for all you've all given me. I will never in a million years be able to tell you how much you all mean to me.

I'm sorry I'm babbling, but I wanted to address everything. I plan on updating soon, thank you all again.

You're all amazing.