The Sexy Billionaire

Thirteen

October 28th

This morning, when i told my housekeeper and my p.a that i'd be spending the night at my old apartment, they looked surprised. For they knew that i hated going to that place.
I havent been there for years and usually, my sister spent the night there for the weekend whenever she needed some privacy to prepare for her thesis.
"Will you be going alone?" My p.a asked.
No. I thought to myself. I had made a few plans what to do tonight and i hope that it'll go well.
"Yes."
"Why?" He asked again.
"I got something to do," i replied.
He kept quiet throughout our journey to the office. I started having second thoughts about it. The last time i went there, i had an emotional breakdown. I used to love the apartment but it was the incident that happened almost five years ago, had somehow scarred and traumatized me for life.
Around 2 something, i went to the hypermarket, looking for Hyo Rin. And caught her lurking somewhere near the boiler room, obviously trying her best to hide from me. Eh? Why?
I told her that i'd be picking her up after work and left as soon as possible. Even though there werent much for me to do at the office nor at home.
"You're dating my sunbae," that was what she told me on the night i sent her back home.
True. I am dating Ye Jin but that doesnt mean that i should be neglecting my friend. I havent met nor spoke to Hyo Rin for more than a week and honestly, i miss her. I even waited for her in front of her apartment for a few nights but when i saw her looking very tired after coming back from work, i restrained myself not to approach her.
Ye Jin, was a very nice girl and i had no problem at all interacting with her ever since our first date. Elegant. Pretty. Nice. I asked her out for another date, and Ye Jin agreed. Normally, i dont  do pass first date. To show my appreciation, i wanted to invite Hyo Rin out for dinner but she turned me down. Looking rather hurt. Half eaten bagel and a small container of milk which was still not yet been drunk, were left behind on the bench where Hyo Rin sat.
It was almost 5p.m. and Hyo Rin was seen walking across the street and sat outside the café. I watched her checking on the time for a few times and in the end, she grew tired of glancing at her wrist watch, she buried her nose in a book. For half an hour, she showed no sign of restlessness of waiting. Until, her male friend whom i've met on dinner a few nights ago came and sat next to Hyo Rin. They had a brief conversation before that guy left, looking disgruntled over something. Hyo Rin watched him leave and glanced at her wrist watch again. I left her waiting for me for almost an hour and when i saw her expression changed, i immediately walked out from the car and approached her.
"I got caught up with work, sorry," i lied,"Been waiting long?"
"No," she lied smoothly,"I just got here."
"Great," i said, grinning,"Are you ready?"
"Where are we going?" She asked, looking hesitant.
"To a place where we will be having dinner," i told her,"Unless, you have something else in mind."
"What if sunbae sees us?" She asked.
"Ye Jin got a night duty," i sighed heavily,"And even if she do sees us, its not going to be a problem, isnt it? We're friends. Two good friends hanging out for dinner is normal."
She just stared at me and honestly, her expression was unreadable at that moment.
"Friends," she mumbled.
She followed me back to the car and i drove along the busy road. Peak hour usually irritates me but not today. The more time i spend with her, the happier i would be.
Ye Jin and i had been going out for dates at least three times this week alone. I recalled myself driving during traffic jams and privately thought that i should be at home instead. That was why dating isnt my thing.
"So, how are you?" I asked.
"Im okay, as usual," she replied,"You? Thinks are well between you and sunbae?"
"Yeah, she's nice," i said,"I was right to trust your judgement. If it wasnt because of you, most probably i wont be dating anyone at the moment."
"Oh, right," that was all she could manage to say. For some unknown reason, awkwardness were slowly creeping in. I sensed that Hyo Rin was holding back onto something.
About half an hour, we had finally arrived at my old apartment. I parked my car and slowly, flashbacks from my past were right in front of eyes. Like a watching a movie in 3D glasses.
"Are you okay, ajusshi?" Hyo Rin asked, frowning a little,"You look pale."
How long i had been staring at the entrance, i had no idea. I literally could see myself entering the apartment from where i am at that moment and we were hand in hand. Looking very happy indeed. Song Eun Suh and I.
"Ajusshi!" Hyo Rin's voice rang like a bell,"Are you okay? Do you want to sit down first?"
"No. Im okay. I need to do this," i said to her but addressing it more to myself. Hyo Rin looked confused.
Upon reaching the 10th floor, i passed the key to her, prompting her to open the door. I just couldnt do it.
The moment the door swung open, i felt like i travelled back to time. It was exactly the same as before. When i came back home that night, the living room was empty. I assumed that Eun Suh had gone to bed since it was already late. We had an argument earlier in the evening and i left due to frustration.
"Eun Suh?" I knocked on the bedroom door,"Are you still mad at me?"
Thinking that she might had already sleep, i went to the kitchen. A written letter for me was on the kitchen counter. I smiled fondly when i saw it, thinking that it was her letter telling me that she was sorry, like she always do.
Her last letter. I rushed back to the bedroom and Eun Suh had hanged herself.
I couldnt remember what happened nor what i did afterwards.
"Ajusshi! Yah! Kim Jong Kook!" Hyo Rin was heard yelling and i realised that i was on the knees. Crying. Completely unaware that i came here with Hyo Rin. I looked at her and for one second, i saw Eun Suh's face.
"Are you okay? I think we should go," Hyo Rin suggested,"Obviously this place had traumatized you and coming here isnt a good idea."
"I should have not left. I should have stayed. Because of one stupid argument, i left," i spoke, barely able to hold back my emotions that swept over me like a tidal wave,"Eun Suh would probably wont killed herself if i stayed."
"Ajusshi?" Hyo Rin knelt down next to me.
"She hanged herself, in the bedroom, soon after i left," i went on, burying my face in my hands,"That was the reason why i never wanted to come back here."
I cried even harder when i felt Hyo Rin's warm hug.
"You should have told me," Hyo Rin said,"You cant come in here without mentally prepared."
And it took me quite a some time to calm down and i began telling Hyo Rin the story of my life and Eun Suh which i never told anyone. Hyo Rin was a good listener, she listened attentively as i told her how i met Eun Suh, how we had our wedding planned months before she died. Eun Suh was diagnosed with severe depression when i met her and somehow, our relationship lasted for at least 6 years. She was 32 when she died. That was the only woman i had ever loved so dearly.