Twenty Eight

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December 26th

Boxing day.
The snowstorm last night wasnt that terrible compared to the ones that i had when i still a kid. Luckily, the electricity didnt go out and i was worried of the food that kept in the refrigerator would go bad if the there was no electricity.
Yesterday, i spent my entire morning at the cemetery. I talked all my heart's content, yet, it didnt satisfy me a bit. If my parents and my brother were still alive, most probably they would know how to console me and give me some good advises on what to do. I knew they would be disappointed somehow but family, they dont leave each other no matter how big your mistake was.
Parents would be always forgiving to their kids even though what they did was a disgrace for them and they would always welcome you home with open arms.
But, im all by myself. I have no family left. Apart from my grandfather but he already had enough having his wife and several kids and grandchildren. I was tempted to give him a call but knowing him would definitely going to lay his hands on Kim Jong Kook, i stopped myself. He had always being protective. He had once hired a group of bodyguards that would accompany me around the clock after my parents and my brother died. Until i refused.
My step grandmother doesnt like him to spend too much money on me and in the end, i paid for my school fees using my salaries from three part time jobs that i had.
A law degree was expensive, very expensive but it was worth it. I passed my evaluation test and once im done with my internship, im a certified lawyer.
I should be happy for being able to achieve so much, just to continue my dad's legacy but somehow, i was depressed. Alone and pregnant, i was lost. Jin Hyuk had been such a dear to me but i just, dont feel comfortable bothering him all the time. I didnt want to give him any hopes at all even though, he was willing to father my child even if it wasnt his.
Would that be fair to him? He deserve someone much better, but not me.
I made a fe half boiled eggs and toasted bread but i only could ate some. I was feeling nauseous once more. In the end, i made some peppermint tea, switched on my laptop and surfed the web.
I need to know more about pregnancy. I came across certain article from a medical website about nauseousness and realised that morning sickness could go bad. Morning sickness! Princess Katherine Middleton was hospitalized a few times for acute morning sickness when she was pregnant with Prince George and Princess Charlotte.
Wow. Thank heavens mine was not so severe. I hope not. If anything happened, i had no means of transportation. The bicycle that i crashed last November was still in the shed. That was when Kim Jong Kook helped me.
Kim Jong Kook. Sighing heavily, i do miss him but no. Not all love story would have a happy ending. I know mine does not.
Reality is a bitch sometimes.
You think of him most of the time, but have you ever wonder whether he ever thinks of you? My subconsciousness asked me.
"No," i mumbled to myself. He wont. I knew that he wont. This weekend was his wedding ceremony, a grant celebration from what i've read on the internet. Yeah yeah, i googled him up. It wasnt difficult, one of the most eligible bachelor in the city who happens to be billionaire, were always on the hunt by the paparazzi.
I ended up daydreaming of myself and my kid. Not older than 3years old, my kid was a boy. Running around the house and the funny thing was, my parents and my brother was there too. Apparently my brother wasnt married, how ironic for a man who called himself a chick magnet a few times. There was a guy whom i did not recognise nor i didnt see his face. My baby boy was seemed to be playing with him.
Who it might be? Even though it was day dream but it felt so real. I didnt remember falling asleep either. Until, my phone rang. I snapped out of it and when i saw the number, it was the same unknown number which had been calling me a few times since yesterday. I flipped down the phone to mute the call and decided to make some snacks to eat. Decided to watch a few drama series on tv since i got hooked up with one particular drama.
As i ate through my light meal, flipping through the channel, my phone rang once again. When i checked who was calling, it was the same unknown number. Geez, whoever it was, that person was persistent enough to keep calling me. I was tempted to switch off my phone but Jin Hyuk wont be able to call me for sure.
Speaking of the devil, Jin Hyuk called me right after unknown number's fourth attempt.
"Hey ya!" I greeted Jin Hyuk cheerfully.
"Hey you," he replied,"What are you doing? Is that tv i hear? Oh! You're eating."
"Yes and yes," i said,"I got hooked with this one new drama. Its quite nice."
"Must be the hero of the drama is good looking too," he said, teasingly,"Am i right?"
"Well, yes," i giggled,"That too. He is very good looking."
"Okay, i dont want to know. What are you eating by the way?" He asked,"I just had lunch with my parents."
"Just granola," i replied,"Did you go anywhere yesterday?"
"After Christmas mass, we went out for buffet dinner at my cousin's place," Jin Hyuk said,"They asked about you by the way. My nephews and nieces."
"Aww, they must have grown so much and cuter too!" I said,"How are they?"
"They were doing great. Just started preschool," Jin Hyuk said,"Hyo Rin?"
"Yes?"
"How are you doing?" He asked.
I was almost tearful but i forced myself to swallow it. Stay strong, otherwise he would come over and i wouldnt want that. Its a long journey. Even Kim Jong Kook were experiencing back pains when he drove here.
Kim Jong Kook.
"Im okay, i guess," i lied,"Much better. Thank you, for asking."
"Come home, alright? I miss you," he said.
"I will, dont worry," i replied before saying goodbye and hang up.
The drama that i was waiting for just started but i had lost interest watching it. My mind was racing and but Jin Hyuk's nephews and nieces who just started preschool managed to make me smile.
My kid would probably just like them.

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