Pete's POV
Idiot.
That was the only word I could call myself at that moment. Just to test something, I kissed him. I needed to get this all over with, but that kiss wasn't enough. I mess up a lot of things, but this has to be the worst.
I couldn't find out if Patrick has told my dad last night. He probably didn't, this morning my father was is usual self. He probably would have killed me, if he found out. I didn't see Patrick at all in the morning before school. He's probably hiding to not see me.
I did expect that reaction from him though. Patrick resisted, not wanting to kiss me back. After all he does love my father, but why hide this from him. Would it be to keep the relationship with my father? Or did it actually mean something?
I wish I knew. Most importantly what did that kiss mean to me? I kissed him, without a good reason. But there shouldn't be any reason to kiss him at all...
Yet I still don't know exactly my feelings for that guy. Or if I would ever want to know about them. I think it would be best if I move out as soon as possible, or find myself someone else to keep my distance.
"PETE!" I looked up from my tray and Brendon was waving at me.
"What?"
"Dude you have been distracted, since lunch started... What's wrong?"
I smiled, "nothing, it's just... well soccer practice is today. And you know how much I love to play."
"I doubt that's why you were smiling to yourself." Frank says taking a bit from his food.
"Ooooo, could it be out little Pete finally found someone!!"
I stared at Brendon annoyed, he is very nosy sometimes. "No I haven't, and who are you calling little?!"
"I'm just saying those eyes of yours looked like you were in love..."
Love?? "And how do you know what that word means, if you have two men wrapped around your finger and you can't choice between one."
"Ouch! I'll have you know I don't have to choice anyone. Besides I won't be able to pick which one, because I'm in love with both!"
Both. Is it possible to love two people at the same time? Could that happen to Patrick can he love my father and me?... No, I'm getting a head of myself.
"So, then tell us for real then Pete if it isn't someone you like, Then what has you so distracted?" Frank asked.
"Have you ever done something so wrong, that just felt so good?"
Brendon chuckled, "yeah... But what did you do?"
"I can't tell you, it was a one time thing I plan on it never to happen again."
"If you liked what you did, I think it will be difficult for you to stop..."
Brendon nodded, "Frank does have a point. Unless you tell us what it is, maybe it won't be so bad."
"I can't tell you, just forget I said anything... Now let's finish eating the bell is about to ring."
The rest of the day went by smoothly. Brendon didn't insist anymore, and if he did I probably would have ended up telling him to get him off my back.
I got in and everything was quite, I assumed my dad and Patrick went out.
As I walked towards my room I went passed the bathroom the door was closed and the water was running. I heard soft singing coming from inside, it was Patrick.
"...How did it end up like this,
It was only a kiss..."
I waited until Patrick came out, His hair wet wearing a black shirt and jeans.
"Pete..." He says surprised, once he saw me.
I just smiled, "It was only a kiss."
