tinted // l.p.

Chapter 22

A/N: SEX SEX SEX

Ira's POV

How do i explain this,

I don't remember having sex for the first time.

I just remember being really sore when i woke up.

I was passed out. 

And I had no idea.

So here I am in my room, having a bit of a panic attack as i pace back in forth because how the hell do i explain this to him? He'll be disgusted - but i have to tell him. I have to tell him everything so he wont regret anything that has to do with me. 

I need to.

I can hear the front door closing, i can hear his footsteps stopping for a short while before slowly making it up the stairs. I can hear my heart racing as the door creaks open, reveling a shy looking Liam with his head down.

He closes the door after him, standing there awkwardly as i stare at him. Its dark outside and the only light in the room is the moonlight, but somehow he makes it look like a spot light. His slightly quiffed hair, his glowing tan skin underneath a clingy black shirt, his long legs covered by a semi-tight pair of jeans and lastly his feet covered by a pair of red converse.

I've never really put much thought into how he looks, to be honest the first thing i always notice are his eyes. His beautiful chocolate brown eyes. But with his head bowed down i can't even get a glimpse. 

"Liam?"

His head shoots up, eyes focused on me. I don't know what i should say or how to say it, but i know I have to tell him before we do - this.

God i'm such a fuck up.

He walks towards me till we're inches apart, his eyes starring into mine and i honestly just wish he would kiss me already. I sigh, closing my eyes with a deep breath.

"Liam I have to tell you - everything befo-" 

I can feel his lips on mine, refusing to let me finish. I force myself to pull away, as much as it killed me. I'd love to skip right into it but I have to tell him - now or never, right?

"Liam I-"

He stops, pulling back with his palms cupping my cheeks. "Don't." he breaths out, closing his eyes shortly before opening them again, the moon making them appear golden.

"D-Don't what?"

"Don't say anything. We both have a lot to talk about, I know. But you have no fucking idea how long i've waited for this so i really don't want to ruin it by saying something you don't wanna hear so please, don't."

And that's all it took.

I nodded, pulling his neck as i fell down against the mattress. We were both fully clothed and i hated it. I wanted skin on skin dammit. If after i tell Liam everything and he realizes how worthless I am and leaves i want this to be memorable. I want to be able to tell my grandchild this. Well not really but you get my point.

My hands find their way to the hem of his shirt, desperately tugging it up and off his body. I wasted no time removing mine, pulling Liam back on top of me, our lips moving in sync as our hands roamed one another's body.

My skin was hot, burning almost as his body moved slightly against mine. I could feel the bulge in his pants and i knew it must be painfully restricted by his briefs. I trail my hands down to his waist, quickly unbuttoning the button and moving the zipper down. He got where i was going and stood, quickly stepping out of his shoes and pulling off his pants. I tug my pants off as well, not really wanting to waist anytime.