School Secrets | Book 19 (Student/Teacher book 1 of 2) COMPLETE

Chapter 4

I got home in a state, lucky for me mum was still too upset to notice anything, after cooking dinner and taking a shower I spent the rest of the night trying to figure out how I was going to face Mr Jones the next day and whether or not I should tell miss Hickstead in our meeting.

I spent most of the night awake like I had for the past three weeks and by the time I did get to sleep I would only get 2 hours of sleep before my alarm when off.

After waking up late and trying to get mum to eat something I slowly made my way to school, if it hadn't been for Mr. Jones I think I would have run to school so I wasn't late but today I didn't feel that way.

By the time I got there form had been over for half an hour and once I had signed in there was no point of me going to my first lesson. Sat on the benches outside pastoral gave me time to think I thought about my life, dad, mum and how it was so much easier back in America.

I also thought about what I could do to help myself maybe write a story, poem or a song, my thoughts were interrupted by miss Hickstead calling my name.

"Hello Ceaira if you would like to wait in there. I will be with you in a minute".

I sat inside the room staring blankly at the wall it was like I had finally managed to block the whole world out and for the first time and a while I felt quite peaceful so much so that I didn't notice miss Hickstead come in and it was only when she sat down in front of me that I realized. I couldn't help but smile she had already done so much for me and I had only been at the school for a week.

"I saw you running out of Mr. Jones classroom yesterday and I wanted to make sure you were ok"

I flicked my eyes from her to the floor I couldn't bare the thought of telling her what Mr. Jones did, but I didn't want to sit around like a helpless puppy and let him have all the control.

"Ceaira is there something you want to tell me?

"Something bothering you that you would like to say?"

She could tell by my silence that something was eating away at me something that was big but something that was hard to say without making it sound like there was foul play on both side and that something could shape both lives forever.

"Miss I wish I had someone I could confide in, someone that I knew would never say a word of what I have said to anyone else someone like a shrink but not"

While saying this I couldn't help look at anything but Miss, my eyes went from the wall to the floor to the people outside and back again.

She understood instantly what I meant as she had been the same when she was younger apart from the part about being harassed by one of her teachers.

I was told there was a person in the school that did that job and that Miss would go and talk to him if I wanted.

"That sounds great but I don't know if I would talk to him. The thing is miss I have trouble trusting people and there is only one person in my life that I would confine in about anything".

"Oh"

She had a surprised and somewhat hurt look on her face as if I had just insulted her.

"I didn't mean to insult you if that's what you're thinking miss and to tell you the truth you're that person".

"Ceaira you do know how to flatter a person"

I couldn't help but smile and I couldn't believe it

when miss told me that it was break I had managed to get through the fifty minutes without telling her about Mr. Jones.

I spent break thinking about what I had told Miss Hickstead and what I was going to do about Mr. Jones even through maths I continued to think about what I could do let him do it again but and hope someone walks in on him report it now and hope they don't blame me or just avoid him and his lessons.

Our tech lesson was in the I.C.T room we were meant to be writing up something about what we had just done but I had to many things happen to me that I never paid any attention to what we were doing so I never finished it, I spent most of that lesson researching ways to bust Mr. Jones and I found a few websites that were quite helpful.

Lunch felt like it was never going to end and the teacher in isolation never spoke so I had to sit there in silence, I felt a sigh of relief as the bell went until I realized that my next lesson was with him, science this was it, how would he act around me, I didn't want to find out.

I wanted to skip this lesson and go straight to English but I knew I had to face him even if it was something from one of my worst nightmares.