Unexpected

Chapter 6.

"Ahm.. I'm sorry for asking you this and I don't really want to annoy you or something but are you still having that dinner with Albert and his mother?" I say trying not to force an answer.

"I don't really know.." She says with a confused expression on her face.

"You still have time to decide, it's only at night.." I try to comfort her .

"I just don't know what to do. Albert doesn't agree with this but he said that if his mother is happy with my father , he doesn't care about the rest.. How can he be so calm about this? We're going to live together, and if it's all go wrong?" She says with tears in her eyes.

"Oh Soph.. don't cry.. look, I totally understand what you're saying, I get it, but if your dad wants to move on with his life it's because he feels prepared for that, maybe this step, this huge step will make him happier.."

"But he's not only moving on with his life! He's moving with mine too and that is not fair!" She really is crying and I hate myself right know because I don't really know if I should hug her and just shut up or if I should tell her what I would do if I was her..

"Look, you have all the right in the world to be upset. He's moving on with your life too and he doesn't have the right to do that, but are you sure that you're upset because he's changing his life in such a huge way or maybe you're upset because you think that Albert's mother has no right to be with your dad after your mum..?" I know that she will be pissed with me because of what I said, but I really need to be honest with her.

She is looking at me with watery eyes and I know she is hurt with all of this. I just don't know what to do to help her.. She is looking at the ground now.. It's so weird to see her this way. I need to apologize, I shouldn't have said that.

"I'm sorry Soph.. about what I said.. I was just trying to help.. sorry..I didn't mean to upset you even more,"

"I.. know.. it's just.. deep inside I know that my mum is the reason that I don't want my dad with that woman.."

I knew it!

"I know Soph. I know. You need to talk with your dad about this!"

"I can't. I understand what Albert is doing. He's just trying to protect himself from this.."

"Yeah, and you need to do the exact same thing,

Finally she stopped crying.

"Is what you do?"

"What?"

"Protect yourself? That is the reason why you avoid feelings?"

"Well, yeah. Sometimes is just better to turn the feelings off. You don't feel. You can't get hurt."

"Well I think I'm going to start doing that.."

"Why? Don't do it. It's a blessing to feel and be brave enough to handle your own feelings. Sometimes it's just too overwhelming and that's why I do it but you shouldn't have to."

Sophia gives me a small smile and hugs me.

"You think I should go talk to him?"

"Um, no. Why don't you try your best to be nice to him during the dinner? I don't think he needs your apologize right now, because you didn't say nothing wrong."

"I need to call my father to say we are going to that damn dinner."

"Really?"

"Yes. I'm going to give her an opportunity. Albert is doing the same with my dad so why not?"

"Yes! Absolutely! And be nice to Albert, he's going through the same as you are and it will make the situation better if you two can be friends."

I watch her talking with his dad from a distance. I wanted to give her some privacy. I know that we are friends but I like to have my space alone so she probably thinks the same..

She hangs off the phone and walk towards me.

"I did it. I called my dad. Now let's go to that damn dinner."

"Well, I wish you good luck!" I say with a smile.

"You could come-"

What?!

"What?!"

"What's the problem? You're my friend, Ellen knows who you are for the best reasons and Albert would be bursting with joy,"

I really am happy that she said that about Albert but there's no way I'm going to that dinner.

"No way Soph! It's a family dinner! Not gonna happen. Sorry." I say with a determined expression.

"Fine. Well I think that Albert would love hearing everything that you always say like those boring facts and stuff."

"They're not boring! They're educational! You can need them when you're older.. I'm saving your life here, buddy."

"No, you're not. You're wasting my time."

"Well, I'm not going."

"Fine." She says with a disappointed look and cross her arms.

"Look who is trying to hide herself from the world now!"

"I'm not! Albert does this too! You two are much alike though.."

"He does?" I really can't hide the smile that appears in my face. We've got something in common.

Well, that's exciting.

"Yep. He was so angry because of you.." She says and then she keeps staring at me with a regretful expression.

"Because of me?! Why?!" Did I say something wrong?

"Ahm.. Well he was really mad at me because he thought I told you something-"

"What?"

"He thought I told you we were dating,"

"Why would I think that?"

"Because you said that we were getting closer to eachother.."

"Yes but I didn't mean it like that!" Now I understand why he was so curious to know what I was talking about..

"I know. He doesn't." She says.

"And what more did he tell you?" My curiosity takes the best of me.

"Well, to be honest he said a lot of swears and bad language.."

"Really?"

"Yeah, he was really pissed off.."

"Because of what I could be thinking about you two?"

"Yep. I think he cares about you, Ems"

"You think?" I barely can hide my excitement right now. He cares about me? Am I dreaming for the fourth time today?"

"Well, yeah. His attitude was completely out of mind.. He was yelling at me like a fucking crazy!"

I laugh. I'm really bursting in joy right now! Does he really care about me? Is that even possible? I don't know.

"Fuck is so late! I have to run to meet my dad so we can talk about the dinner before we go to Albert's house! I'll call you later to tell you all the details! Maybe I can break a dish or two.."

"Okay, have fun and good luck!" I say with a laugh.

"You really don't know what the word 'fun' means, do you?"

"Shut up!"

She walks away laughing.

I honestly want to go to that dinner.. I would see him and hear his voice but it makes no sense for me to go. I'm going to spend my night studying and reading.. I definitely know how to enjoy my youth.