Payb Takes

Arrividerci

Title Translation: Goodbye, See You Soon

May 26, 6am, Hotel Metropole Suisse (R's room):

M wakes up feeling warm and cozy snuggled in R's arms with the thick duvet covering her shoulders. She doesn't remember wrapping herself in the thick blanket, R must have done that after she drifted off to sleep earlier. She smiles at the thought and looks up at R's calm angelic face, still sleeping soundly.

M: *caresses R's face* Always so caring... *smiles* Why do you always have to be so sweet and loving and caring and chivalrous and so perfect?

She rubs her cheek on R's bare chest. He doesn't seem to notice or hear her. His relaxed breathing and steady heart beat tells her he's still fast asleep.

M props herself up on one elbow and stares down on R's face, lost in her thoughts. Knowing he won't be able to see them, she lets the tears flow from her eyes.

"Stay..." She whispers, saying what her heart is really telling her to say. She has been trying to encourage him, helping him pack his bags and making him smile every time he worries and becomes sad about leaving her and thinks of staying with her instead of going home ahead of her.

She speaks to him in a soft whisper so she won't wake him although a voice in her head is screaming out and crying.

M: *in her softest whisper* Stay, Love. Just stay with me. *pauses to let a small sob escape her* Sasabihin ko na ngayon kasi mamaya di mo ako pwedeng makitang ganito. *swallows a lump in her throat* I understand, you have to go. Para sa atin din naman yun. In the same way na kailangan ko pang maiwan para sa trabaho. Alam kong mahirap... Atleast for me, alam kong mahihirapan ako kasi... kasi... maiiwan akong mag-isa. Pero don't worry, Love, lalakasan ko ang loob ko mas matapang na ako ngayon at dahil sa'yo yun. Kaya ko to ha... Kaya ko... Mami-miss kita ng sobra pero kaya ko.. Kakayanin ko... *sighs* Kaya ko... *spoken weakly, trying to convince herself*

She lightly traces a line from his forehead, down his nose, his lips and chin with her finger, staring at his face, memorizing every detail. She wants to have as many image of him in her mind to keep with her until they see each back home in a few days.

M: I know... I know... Ilang araw lang naman parang ang OA ko but I can't help it. I will always think about you... Every second without you will feel like hours, every minute will feel like weeks, every hour will feel like months and every day will feel like years... Ano ba to? Parang di tayo sanay... Nag-Dubai ka na nga, Japan at Canada pero bakit ang hirap ngayon? Wala eh... Nasanay na ako na nandyan ka lang kasama ko... Ilang weeks din na magkasama tayo araw-araw halos di maghiwalay. Ang hirap... Kasalanan mo to... *pokes R's nose, R seemingly undisturbed* Sinanay mo ako masyado na kasama ka.. Ang clingy mo kasi, ang sweet mo, ang gentleman mo, ang protective mo, sobrang caring mo, sobrang... *voice breaks, pauses to take a breath as a new stream of tears flow from her eyes* Ano na lang gagawin ko pag wala ka sa tabi ko? I miss you so much already iniisip ko pa lang na uuwi ka na mamaya...

R grunts and stretches. M quickly gets up and turns her back on him before he wakes up. She scuffles to find his shirt that is sprawled on the floor and wears it to cover up.

She hurriedly wipes her tears and takes a few deep breaths to regain her composure and tries to put on her biggest smile before she faces him.

R: Good morning, Love. *scratches his eyes* Ang aga mong nagising. Kanina ka pa? Bakit di mo ako ginising? *pouts*

M: *takes a deep breath, turns to face R with a smile* Good morning, Love. Tampo agad? *walks to the bed and sits beside R* Wala man lang Good Morning kiss muna? *giggles, touches R's face and kisses his lips*