Mind Bottles

Disapointments

The next day I couldn't help but think about what happened the night before. I still haven't slept. Liza was sound asleep next, to me and I couldn't help but stare at her. I saw a side of her that I've never seen before last night. She was beautiful but deadly. When she opened her eyes I stared into them.

"You scared?" She asked.

"I'm just a little shocked." I replied. I rolled over onto my back looking up at the ceiling .

"Don't tell me you feel sorry for that fucking rapist."

"Its not that Liza. I mean I saw Cameron get shot but that wasn't nearly as traumatizing as this."

She rolled her eyes and began to speak to herself in Spanish.

"You know I'm going to learn Spanish one day just so I can understand the shit you be talking."

"Chica, I'll make up my own language just so I can talk even more shit." Liza said as laughing.
We both laughed and I rolled back towards her.

"I broke up with Cameron over him dancing with some dumb bitch."

"You were just angry chica. He knows that."

"He even tried to apologize a ton of times but I kept sending him away. I'm so stupid"

"Let's go." Liza said as jumping out of bed.

"Go what?" I asked as sitting up.

"Get your man back" She said as throwing on pants.

"I don't even know where he is."

"Ask Goat, and you'll find out and hurry."

I texted Goat asking him where Cameron was and he said over his crib.

Me and Liza got showered and got ready to leave when I saw Goat parked out side of my house.

"I figured you'd need a ride. And who is this mami cita?" Goat asked as licking his lips.

Liza rolled his eyes and we both hopped into his SUV. I kept catching Goat glancing in the rear view mirror so I finally spoke up breaking the silence.

"Goat I was thinking since you already be picking bitches up non-stop that you should start getting paid for it." I said to him sincerely.

"What you mean shawty?" He asked.

"I mean that every time I'm looking for a job online I keep seeing this shit about the city looking for ubers and I think you should become one." I replied.

He smiled and then chuckled.

"Look at you, educating a nigga and shit." He replied. I smiled and looked over at Liza who had head phones in her ears.

"Is Cameron okay?" I asked worried.

"He seemed fine to me." He replied.

I nodded and then looked down at my phone.

When we pulled up to Goat's apartment building and I realized that I had no idea what I was going to say. I was just praying that he would forgive me because I've forgiven him.

We all walked into the elevator and me and Liza began to talk about what I should say to him. When the elevator opened to Goat's floor I felt like my heart fell out of my knee. We followed Goat into his apartment and we looked around, but no Cameron.

"He must be in my room" Goat said as heading to the fridge. Liza followed behind me as we went to search for Goat's room.

I slowly opened the door and saw some girl giving Cameron head. I let out a yelp in shock and the girl quickly got up. It was Dawn, this nigga was getting head from Dawn.

"Are you fucking kidding me?!" I yelled in anger. Liza quickly turned around and headed back to the living room because she knows how I am when I'm angry. I began to laugh and Cameron quickly pulled up his pants and I told Dawn to leave. I began to clap my hands

"Bravo nigga!" I yelled and then turned around leaving the room.

Cameron chased after me but what could he say? Its not what it looks like? I know what the fuck I saw.

I began to walk down the apartment buildings steps and Cameron followed behind me calling my name telling me to slow down. But in my head I couldn't hear a thing, I just heard every breath I was taking.

Once I exited the building I let out a deep breath and Cameron grabbed onto my arm but I turned around and slapped him across the face. His face was shocked and his cheek began to turn red.

"How could you?!" I screamed with anger.

"Baby i-"

"No fuck that! You had the audacity to have that bitch sucking your dick and god only knows what else!"

"She just-"

"I came here to say sorry! I came to apologize because I felt bad for what I did last night but then I walk in and see this shit! Do you know that now I can't ever touch you again?! I can't look at you the same way because all I'm going to see is her! I can't have you inside of me knowing you were inside of her!"

Cameron just stood there in silence with his shirt off. Tears began to run down my face and I looked down at my shaking hands. He tried to hold me but I instantly pushed him away.

"Don't fucking touch me! You disgust me!"

Liza and Goat then walked out of the apartment building.