He led me to the back yard, we sat down on two chairs next to a high counter heighted table. There were fairy lights around the back yard and a candle on the table. I started to play with the hem of my dress again. "SO how was your day?" he asked.
"It was...... okay" I said. "Your's?"
"It was.... fine." he said.
Well this is awkward.....
"Okay, so obviously this is awkward...." Shawn said, I nodded in response. I looked up at him and he was rubbing the back of his neck with his hand. "W-what did you want to talk about?" I asked him.
"I just wanted to... get to know you better." He said.
"Your lying." i said.
"What?" he said.
"You paused in the middle of your sentence, meaning you're either unsure or lying" I spoke.
Shawn chuckled, "I guess we know more about each other than we've guessed huh?" He said. I giggled, "Yea I guess so." I said, smiling.
"Here's another fact about me." he said, sitting up straight and holding my hand across the table. "I don't like awkward conversations and I like to be straight up with my feelings." He said, then took a breath to cause a pause. "And I really like you Penelope" he said, causing a huge eruption of butterflies in my stomach. "I have strong feelings about you and I think you do too...." he said. I sat there in silence, speechless. "Sorry." he apologized, taking his hand away, "I went to fast didn't I?"
"No it's just...." i said, "Here's a fact about me." i said, "I'm a very confusing person if you haven't found that out yet, and I'm not very good with expressing my feelings about people and things, so what I'm about to do is kinda a once in a lifetime thing." i said, then a took a deep breath and kept eye contact with him. "I have feelings for you too..." I said. "But, I haven't really... fully... kinda... moved on from my last boyfriend." I said, looking down. "he.. hurt me really badly when we broke up...." i said quietly, fighting back tears as I had flashbacks.
I felt Shawn's hand hold onto mine, "Im going to beat him up, what's his name." he said, causing me to smile.
"It's okay." i said, "He's long gone and i'm glad of that." I spoke.
"That's good," he said as he moved his chair closer to me and sat down right in front of me. "but if he comes back, I'll beat him up for you." he said, winking. Which caused me to laugh.
"Thanks, but no thanks, I can fight my own battles." i spoke.
"OOOO DAYUM PENELOPE IS A FIGHTER!" he said, causing me to giggle and push him a slight bit to tell him to stop, causing Shawn to chuckle. We both then sat there in a peaceful silence, staring into each other's eyes. Shawn moved in slowly and I turned my head, "Not now Mendes, not now." I whispered into his ear.
"Then when." Shawn whispered as I moved back in my seat.
"You'll know." I said, "you'll know, and I'll know.... we'll both know" i spoke.
