NERD (Niam) (boyxboy)

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I could hear Liam talking to mum at the front door. She invited him in already and was talking about me.

I really didn't want to see him.

I feel sick.

How didn't I notice before?

How could I forget something like that?

I deserved the beating I got.

Everything seems to be about me. Poor Niall. Poor nerd. I'm so unlucky. My brother killed people. I must be just like him, right? that's what they all say.

But I never took in the fact that I didn't just lose a brother, well, I didn't. He's still breathing.

People lost their siblings, cousins, children, grandchildren, godchildren, friends.

All I can think about is how I got screwed over by my brother.

I must just be selfish.

"Hey Ni". Liam came in with a small smile and papers in his hand. "How you feeling?" He sat on the edge of my bed and placed the work on my bedside table.

"I'm okay I guess". I shrugged and closed my eyes, not really able to face him. Not like I can run away.

I felt body heat and a warm figure above me. His breath fanned over my cheek, slowly moving to my lips and he kissed me, just sitting there and not moving. After a few seconds he started to move his lips against mine. I kissed back, of course. It's Liam fucking Payne. Boy o boy wowee (inside joke for AFL 😂) he's a good kisser.

He slipped his tongue along my lips and I opened my mouth, his tongue massaging mine as we fought for control, him winning of course. He moved away slightly and kissed down my chin, working his way down my neck and nipping lightly. I moaned and felt his smirk as he sucked on my collar bone, nipping and biting.

My chest is rising and falling rapidly as I'm struggling for breath as he comes back up and connects our lips again. He runs his warm, rough hands under my tshirt and roams my bare skin. 

I slide my hands over his ass and squeeze, making him push down and sliding his crotch over mine. 

Of course my ribs were burning like hell but I couldn't care less. The intensity I was feeling at this moment was worth it. 

He pulled my shirt up and I lifted my head to assist, him pulling his off and leaning back down, a small smile on his lips as he kissed down my neck, making his way down my chest and left open mouth kisses over my stomach. 

I close my eyes and straight away feel tears cloud up, one falling down the side of my face and I let out a small sob, making Liam stop and pull away.

"Oh my god Niall I'm so sorry I didn't mean to push you I didn't realise oh my god no why didn't you tell me why didn't you push me away Niall I'm so sorry oh my god". I let out a chuckle along with a sob and shook crying. "What's wrong!?"

"H-how could you-" I choked on a sob and his frown deepened.

"What did I do?" He began to pull away but I shook my head and pulled him back.

"Nothing!"

"I don't get it".

I wiped my eyes under my glasses and sat up. 

"How could you talk to me?" 

"What?" He let out a confused chuckle and turned to face me. I took a deep breath as silent tears continued to fall.

"My brother...he...he killed your-"

"Oh". He was silent for a few minutes and my nerves continued to increase. 

"I wouldn't talk to me if I was you". I looked down and sniffled. His fingers came to my chin and lifted my head up to look at him.

"Hey" He wiped his thumb lightly across my cheek and cupped my face in his hands. "Niall you didn't do anything. You're so funny, sweet, kind, smart...I would never want to miss out on getting to know you let alone be with you. I love your glasses, how they bring your blue eyes out so much and I love your smile and your laugh and I just don't know how I lived without talking to you for so long". 

"Liam he-"

"Niall, I don't care. You didn't do shit. You aren't your brother".

"How do you know?" He sighed and kissed me. It wasn't rough or rushed or anything. It was really soft and sweet. He gently caressed the back of my neck, playing with the end of my hair and I let out a hum. 

"I just do". He closed his eyes and smiled widely, resting his forehead against mine. 

"I'm so sorry". He shook his head.

"Niall please don't". 

"She was your sister. I remember how much you loved her and how happy she made you and-"

"Niall. Stop". He said through his gritted teeth and I flinched. "I don't like to talk about it okay? Just don't mention it". I nodded and sat up on the top of my bed. He sighed and closed his eyes. "I'm sorry". He scooted closer and lay his hand on my thigh. "Your house is really cute, I love it". I shrugged.

"How was school?" He shrugged. 

"It was school, nothing interesting. I have homework from maths, english and psychology. You haven't missed out on much so Monday shouldn't be too difficult for you". I nodded and closed my eyes. "I was wondering, well, I don't know...I just wanted to ask you if you...never mind it's stupid.."I frowned and shook my head. 

"No what is it?" 

"Would you like to come...My parents are having a little get together on Saturday for lunch and I was wondering if you and your mum would like to join us?" He nervously fiddled with his fingers and I scooted closer to him, placing my hand on his and he looked up to me. 

"We would love to". He let out a breath of relief and smiled, placing his lips on mine again and pulling away. "What if your parents hate me?" He shook his head. 

"I promise they won't. You've seen mum plenty of times remember? She doesn't hate you". 

"But what if your dad doesn't like me Liam I won't be able to handle it I don't have any male figures in my life I don't know how to act what do I-"

"Niall, calm down. You need to stop being so paranoid. I promise it will be fine. Now get some rest, I have my game tonight and the footy tomorrow night so I'll see you on Saturday at 12". I nodded and he kissed me, smiling and waving as he left. 

I lay back with a sigh, grabbing my homework and flicking through it. The past week I've been bored out of my mind and I hadn't gotten one ounce of homework so I'm actually relieved. I would've been anyway though, I love working my brain. 

But I am terrified of how Saturday is going to go..Like, has he told his parents about us? Are we just friends while we're in public? I don't want to hide. It's the reason I came out in the first place. I hate having to hide myself and who I am. I don't want to go through that again. I like being open. 

But I guess we'll just have to see. 

I hate that I can't go watch Liam play tonight, and I can't sit with him tomorrow night in the stands. I'm stuck in this bed for two more days. 

I need to use my energy for something! I can barely even read a book because mum won't let me. 

Ha, imagine your parent not letting you read?

Ridiculous right?

Gotta love parents.

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HIIIII

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