NERD (Niam) (boyxboy)

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Knocking on the door made me bolt, making sure mum didn't wake up and pulling my vest over my head.

"I'm coming calm your farm!" I opened the door to see Harry, a very apologetic smile on his face.

"Hey" He gave a small wave.

"Hi?" I never see him here let alone before school.

"Niall I'm so so sorry I got...distracted...and you were all alone there and I left you and I was your ride home and I wasn't there for you and-"

"Harry!" He stared at me. "Calm the fuck down! I'm fine" chuckling I opened the door a little more. "Would you like to come in?" He shook his head.

"Nah, I came to apologise and offer you a ride to school?"

"Oh, yeah cool I just gotta get my stuff". I run to grab my bag, quickly slipping my shoes on and rushing back to the door, closing it behind me and stepping towards Harry's car.

I looked to see Louis in the front seat, frowning and getting in the back. I didn't expect him to be here. I probably shouldn't have agreed to the ride.

"Hey Niall" Louis turned back to look at me, a small smile on his lips. "Nice to see you". 

"Um, hi?" He nodded and moved to face forwards again, Harry backing out of the driveway. 

Louis hasn't said hi to me since we were just kids, what is the change here? What the fuck?

When we arrive, Harry and Louis jump out and I follow, keeping behind them. They brush hands and connect their fingers. Guess Harry forgave him then? 

Everyone stared at them with disgust and I rolled my eyes. I can't believe they're that pathetic. Who even cares what gender people like? Why is it such a big deal? They act like it's a disease.

it infuriates me. 

I guess this is the way Greg felt...like an outcast. Sick of their looks, their glares, their scowls...

I will never do what he did though. I don't care what they do, I would never kill people. 

That day turned my life into hell. 

I don't think I ever want to see his face again. 

I once looked up to him. He was my superhero. He was my father figure. When dad left, he took care of me. He took care of mum. He was the man of the house. I can still feel the shock I felt when I found out what he did. He wasn't someone I looked up to anymore. He was a monster. A stranger.

He deserves to be behind those bars. I don't ever want him to be let out. But his parole is soon and I'm bloody terrified. He shouldn't be let out on the streets again. 

"Niall, you okay?" Harry frowned and I gave him a small smile, nodding. 

"Yeah". He continued to frown as the bell went and Louis dragged him towards their class. 

"Hey Neil!" A pat on my back made me jump and I turn to see Brian. I glare at him as he laughed along with his friends and they walked away. 

I hate that I liked him. I hate that I was so gullible, so easy to manipulate. 

Liam on the other hand...

He seemed truly sorry. He's been so kind and caring, nothing like Brian. 

I miss his kisses, his hugs, his smell...

I can just feel his lips against mine, the back of my mind imagining the taste and feel. 

"Ow". I stumbled and rubbed my ass as people laughed and I walked away, people running after me and kicking their legs. What the fuck!? 

"HEY KICK ME!" I frowned and they laughed harder. "You got something on your back!" 

I reached back, struggling slightly and grabbed the paper, pulling it and staring at the damn sign that says 'kick me'

Reality ruined my life..

(we're on top of the world - I had to! ;) )

God I was in such a great mind state...Liam and his lips and his hands and just him...I need it now. Fuck this date shit, I'm going for it. 

I walked to the class I was supposed to be in and knocked on the door, opening it.

"Mr. Horan? You're late". I nodded.

"Sorry miss...The principal wanted to see Liam and I". She nodded and looked to Liam, who was frowning at me. He stood and we left the room, walking down the corridor. 

"Why does the principal want to see me?" 

"They don't" I grabbed his wrist and pulled him outside, around to a deserted tree and behind it, pushing him against it and kissing him. He froze for a second but soon began to move his lips against mine and ran his fingers through my hair, pushing our lips harsher together. 

He pulled away and I gently took his face in my right hand. 

"Jesus..Niall...wha-" I pressed my lips to his again. 

"I forgive you. There's no need to work for it. I just...Fuck I missed you". I kissed him again and moved my hands to his hair. 

He's like my happy little pill. 

My sweet little pill...

I just want to sleep next to him...I want to come home to him...I want to hold his hand...I want him to talk me down every night..

"Niall, I'm so sorry". I shook my head and pushed my face into his chest, him wrapping his arms around me and kissing my head. I smelled him - as creepy as that sounds - and hummed, clenching his top in my hands. 

"Don't say sorry". 

"You just made my day Niall Horan". I smiled and huddled into him more. God I missed this. 

I don't even care that I didn't wait until tomorrow. 

I'm glad I did this now.

I couldn't handle another day without him. 

"We're still on for that date tomorrow Payne". He chuckled and I smiled at the sound that vibrated through his chest. 

"Of course Horan" 

"I guess we should get to class then?" I went to get up but Liam pulled me back, making me fall on him. 

"Just stay...Just a little longer". I nodded and relaxed, holding his hand and intertwining our fingers.

God I missed this.

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I recently looked into Troye Sivan and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST HES LIKE A LITTLE BALL OF CUTENESS AND SUNSHINE HES SO ADORABLE AND I KINDA REGRET IT BUT I ALSO DONT BUT I BLOODY LOOKED INTO HIM FUCKING AFTER HE TOURED HERE AND I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE WAS FROM AUSTRALIA LIKE WTF AM I LIVING UNDER A ROCK AND HES MY AGE JFC FROM MY COUNTRY AND MY AGE KILL ME NOW! BUT I FEEL SO PROUD THAT AN AUSSIE HAS GOTTEN SO FAR!!!!!!

so yeah excuse all my references and that little rant...I just love his music and his lyrics and yeah (I WANT YOU TO COLOUR ME BLUE ANYTHING IT TAKES TO MAKE YOU STAY...IM SORRY I CANT HELP IT I LOVE HIS FUCKING SONGS)

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p.s. I'm turning 21 next Wednesday and I can't promise an update in the next week bc busy as but I'll try!